Getting creeped out by my own body

I hear ya! I've always been a stomach sleeper and can't now because it hurts my back too much. But on my sides, my knees knock together and my hips hurt. And on my back, I wind up with a cat on my chest and in my face.

I plopped into bed the other night and I totally thought the kids had left a Lego in the bed. I jump out and shake out my sheets, nothing. So, I get back in bed and feel it again. I made my husband come look, nothing. I get back in and put my hand under my booty, yeah, it was my butt bone I was feeling. Creeped me right out.

This is completely gross, but I had no idea some people (like me, now!) get such a breeze to the vajayjay!  Who knew?!  It's kinda nice ;-)

Haha I first noticed this on a very rainy charity bike ride I did in July! The breeze can be kinda nice, but the water was a bit...er, "chilling," lol.

You are not alone.  For me, it wasn't that I was creeped out by feeling my body, I was somewhat awkward and unsure about what I looked like.  I didn't recognize myself is store windows, mirrors or any other reflective surfaces.  It took me nearly two years to actually 'look' at myself and recognize who was looking back at me.  When I tried clothes on, I had to physically pinch and point at parts of myself to realize that it was me.  It's called body dismorphia (sp) I think. 

Interesting you should mention body dysmorphia. I was a neuroscience major in college and loved reading stories about body dysmorphia, phantom limb syndrome, and other weird neurological cases. I never thought it would hit so close to home, but I'm glad it seems to be temporary for most people. I don't recognize myself in pictures anymore, and when I buy clothes, my brain tries to warp itself into familiar territory again by confabulating theories that the sizes must be mislabeled, or something only fits because the fabric stretches, or the sizes must run big at this store, etc.

I have to laugh at your "squicking out" reactions to your body;  so much better than the people who freak out about hard spots suddenly poking through and thinking it's CANCER!!!

It took me a while to get used to the empty skin effect, too.  It will come.

LOL the other day I asked my husband to check out a weird lump on my back -- he felt it, sighed loudly, then informed me it was my spine.  

 Wow, that post just reminded me of "the spider" ..  a flashback to my own surgery 9 years ago when several of us post-op WLSers on here shared our experiences at suddenly "discovering" our lower sternum and xiphoid process bones and gave it that nickname.      

Yes!  I remember laying in bed one night and was touching the area between my ribs.  I freaked out and told my husband, "Come feel this, I think something is broken!" It was my xyphoid (which I didn't know we had - dummy me). 

During your first year after maintenance I promise you that the remaining fat in your body "shifts" and those super-bony areas that are so prominent right now will fade a bit.  It's a good thing!  You have to be patient because you're not gong to see the final product in the mirror even when you hit goal weight.  

It takes awhile for things to settle down afterward and that includes loose skin.  Some skin will tighten up (you're only 30 so that will probably happen) and gaunt areas will fill in.