RANT: I know its stupid but...

jamrodriguez
on 8/5/15 10:50 am

I probably brush my teeth 4 times a day right now, just to remind myself they're still there. LOL

Willie H.
on 8/5/15 11:12 am
VSG on 08/26/14

When you look back 50, 75 or 100 lbs from now-it will have all been  worth it. It really helps us see how addicted we are to food and our sick and unhealthy relationship with it. Even now, sometimes I see a nice spread buffet and wish I could eat more. Why? How sick is that? It's what got me to high blood pressure, cholesterol, pre-diabetes, hip & knee replacements and all kinds of aches, pains dizziness and lack of well being! Yet, sometimes I am sad because I cannot have a particular food after I am full? Almost like I'm grieving it? Food is like a lover who has betrayed us again and again and yet we keep taking them back-actually craving for their love and comfort?

And although the tool helps us physically because we can only eat so much, it also helps us mentally because it helps us recognize what were were doing to ourselves and the strange overpowering hold food had over us. Eating is not a bad thing, eating unhealthy and out of control is. I say R.I.P. unhealthy habits, Rest In Peace! 

  Vertical Gastric Sleeve-(8/26/14)HW 347lbs SW-328lbs CW-247 lbs  GW-212lbs Randolph,                                                                                       "LOVE" is knowing someone has the power to hurt you, yet TRUST that they won't"  "Sing like no one's listening and dance like no one's watching!!"

    

    

        

    

        

heather5565
on 8/5/15 8:52 pm - Prince George, Canada

That was awesome!

Heather

Soon-to-be-pain-free-and-a-healthier-me.

Gwen M.
on 8/5/15 11:40 am
VSG on 03/13/14

I was on liquids pre-op 10 days and post-op 14 days and OMG, I had liquid fatigue big time by the end of that.  The day I hit pureed foods was the happiest day of my life :P

VSG with Dr. Salameh - 3/13/2014
Diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder and started Vyvanse - 7/22/2016
Reconstructive Surgeries with Dr. Michaels - 6/5/2017 (LBL & brachioplasty), 8/14/2017 (UBL & mastopexy), 11/6/2017 (medial leg lift)

Age 42 Height 5'4" HW 319 (1/3/2014) SW 293 (3/13/2014) CW 149 (7/16/2017)
Next Goal 145 - normal BMI | Total Weight Lost 170

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GeekMonster, Insolent Hag
on 8/5/15 12:56 pm - CA
VSG on 12/19/13

Totally normal.  I think Day 5 was my "WTF did I do to my body?" moment.

All I can say is, it gets better.  The first few days, weeks, months are an adjustment.  Remember WHY you had WLS to keep you motivated.  It may seem like it will take forever to lose the weight, but it will come off.  Hang in there  

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Height:  5'-7"  HW: 449  SW: 392  GW: 179  CW: 220

Ihearttennis
on 8/5/15 5:12 pm - LA
VSG on 04/24/13

I met a lady on this site that was scheduled for surgery the same day.  After I was home and recuperating I reached out to see how she was feeling.  She said that when they went in they noticed she had cancer so they cancelled her surgery. 

I'm sharing that with you because every time I started to feel down about myself or started to doubt if I made the right choice I would think of my OH friend and the opportunity she didn't get to receive.  Its certainly not easy, but it definitely does get easier especially once  you start dropping the weight and start to feel better. The liquid diet is the hardest part. 

you've got this!!

Jen

"Whether you believe you can or you can't ....you are right! " by Henry Ford

kathkeb
on 8/5/15 8:39 pm

Sometimes a 'pity party' and good cry or whine is good for the soul!!

If it helps, you can consider setting a 'time limit' on how long you are going to let yourself feel sorry for yourself each day --- say, maybe 15 minutes in the morning -- and then 'box it up' -- no whining again until tomorrow!!

You went into this as an informed, intelligent adult --- and you know, rationally, that this is just a blip of time in the scheme of things -- and that this will pass.

If allowed, you might consider some sugar-free breath mints, or brushing/flossing/gargling in the middle of the day when you are really wanting to eat --- a clean mouth can be just the thing to steer you to something else!!!

Hang in there -- we have all been there -- it sucks, but it passes!!!

Kath

  
Heavens2Betsy
on 8/6/15 7:01 am
RNY on 02/29/16

At this point, I can only imagine how hard those first few weeks are.  But, one thing I've been doing to get ready is work with a therapist, and we've spent a few weeks creating something called a vision board.  I've been going thru old magazines and looking for inspirational stuff on the internet to print out and put together in a collage so that on those difficult days I can look at it and easily see the positive about why I'm willing to go thru with all of this.  Maybe having a simple project like this will help you get thru the boredom and it keeps your mind more focused on the positive while you look for stuff to put on your board?  Just a thought.

Age: 55.  5' 8" SW 345 lbs.  RNY on 2/29/16 at UVA w/ Dr. Hallowell.     
Month 1 - 3/29/16: 319 (25 lbs. lost) | Month 2 - 4/27/16: 314 (5 lbs. lost) | 
Month 3 - 5/29/16: 303 (12 lbs. lost) | Month 4 - 6/28/16:  293 (10 lbs. lost)
Month 5 - 7/28/16: 289 (4 lbs lost) | Month 6 - 8/28/16: 282 (7 lbs. lost) |
Month 7 - 9/27/16: 278 (4 lbs lost)

LynnAlex
on 8/7/15 12:10 am
RNY on 08/04/15

I hate sugar free food.  I hate the chemicals. But this period will be over soon.  After I was discharged from the hospital today, I looked around and saw so many fat people.  I resented that I had the surgery and they get to go on their merry way and eat whatever they want.  Note:  I did see many of them limping or walking in pain.  

Age 61 5'4" Consult-6/2/15: 238 SW-8/4/15: 210 CW:145 (6/30/18) M1-16#, M2-17#, M3-14#, M4-10#, M5-6#, M6-5#, M7-1#, M8 -3# Range 133-138 DexaScan 4/16/17 19% body fat---- 2016 wt avg 142-146, 2017, wt. avg 132-136, 2018 avg weight 144-146 bounce back is real.

jamrodriguez
on 8/7/15 1:03 am

Its funny you say that. I went back to work today and I had a very similar thought hit me. Many of my customers are older, disabled, etc., but also many of them are that way because of their weight. Today I had a middle aged woman come in who could barely walk, and who asked me for a chair while she shopped, but who was also not much larger than I was at my highest weight. It really struck me that I will never be her, now that I've made this decision. It was incredibly powerful to me. 

    
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