Fell off the wagon/but also some NSV's

If I was Catholic I'd say I'm heading to the church for confession; but I'm not Catholic. I'm here to confess that I am still dealing with the emotional roller coaster that is WLS. Tomorrow is the 4 month mark for my surgery. I saw 183 on the scale over a week ago and the next day it was 186. I have been in Toronto with my niece and her son. He had to have surgery at Sick Kids yesterday. I brought yogurt and strawberries and a couple protein bars. After getting to the hospital at 6 a.m. I ate my yogurt and had some decaf tea. And I dumped...felt like **** and trying to keep it together for my niece. Had about 4 hours sleep the night before didn't help. Anyway...confession...I ate a 1/3rd of a croissant with a bit of strawberry jam later that morning while he was in surgery. My stomach just could not tolerate one more egg or a piece of meat after dumping. His surgery went well and we were out of the hospital by noon. Passed a sandwich shop and bought a steak burrito to take back to the hotel for lunch. Ate just the steak, cheese (had them put on extra) and the low fat sour cream. It stayed down well. Left my niece and great nephew to take a nap and headed out for a walk to Chinatown. I was looking for a specific restaurant that my son had taken me to last year. It's a ramen noodle bowl kind of place. While taking in the sights I ate the better part of a nectarine. No problems. I thought we would be driving to dinner but my niece wanted to walk. I was pretty tired but after my earlier transgressions agreed. Got to the restaurant and ordered the filet mignon spicy noodle bowl. I ate the half a hard boiled egg, the steak and a bit of the noodles. None of the juice. It was delicious! So totally off my new lifestyle for pretty much the whole day. I am human right? So I am back to reality this morning. And am proud to say that I logged over 13 kms of walking on my fitbit. Sorry for the rant...just hoping to keep myself honest and get a little support. The weight loss has slowed a ton this month and I'll be lucky to be down 5 pounds for the month. And I have stuck to the plan for 4 months so we will see what the ******* scale says tomorrow. LOL So many NSV's yesterday too though...crazy long walk and not red, sweaty or out of breath...Swim in the pool and didn't grunt once climbing out and the "normal" sized towel wrapped around me with some left to tuck in!!!!

Woohoo!!! have a great day everyone!

Hey not all of us are Saints.  Some of us make mistakes along the way.  Sometimes you take two steps forward and one step back.  What's important is that you get back on track. 

The old me would cheat and then keep on cheating.  I would say what the heck the rest of the weekend...or week.  Not anymore. 

Congrats on your NSVs!!!

I don't see any problem...you are just living life.  You have made some insiteful observations into your choices.  

I could be a "meanie" and say "Hey, you screwed up, you're never going to reach your goal if you make excuses and give yourself permission to cheat!" -- but I don't see that being the case.  Sometimes, life gets in the way.  Sounds like you had a plan, but the dumping threw a monkey wrench into the mix.  One thing I will say, though, is don't count on having more than one protein bar in a day.  I don't eat them at all, way too many carbs for me.

But, you've acknowledged the problem, and you didn't let it get away from you - you're back on track now.  Don't let this trip you up.  If there's no weight gain because of this episode, don't let it open the door to "well, I had part of a croissant and didn't gain, so maybe I can have ______________ (fill in the blank:  a slice of pizza, a donut, and chocolate bar, etc.).

Congratulations on your NSVs!!  Hope all goes well for your niece's son.

Mary