Feeling utterly disgusted with myself...

Just sending you a bit of love  from one survivor to another.  I have no wise advice, but wanted you to know that you aren't alone.

"I am worth fighting for." 

I had to learn to say this to myself all the time after the year 1978 happened.  Survivors of rape, molestation, or abuse of ANY kind don't feel "worth" anything... and certainly not worth fighting to survive and be whole.

But you CAN do it.  You are absolutely worth it.

Please stay with your therapist - can you increase to 2x week instead of just one? 

Small baby steps one day at a time.  Hang on and do not let go.

We're here when you need us.  PM if you need to.

Leslie