Finally Approved after 8 long years and I'm shocked that I'm not more excited??!!!

I have literally fought, cried, prayed, and sought after WLS for 8 years.  My first attempt was in 2006 and was denied because my insurance required 5 years of documented weight history (that I couldn't provide), plus a 6 month waiting period.  After that I went on my own personal journey to lose the weight, and regained it of course.  Then i attempted again in 2010 and paid for cobra for 6 months to only find that they had made a revision to my insurance after the new year, and no longer covered WLS.  So finally after all of my attempts, and failed natural attempts at keeping the weight off, i received an approval from BCBS and have my surgery date of July 25th.  I have so many mixed feelings, and unexpected fears.  I start my pre-op diet on July 11th, but I started a PRE Pre-op diet just to get my mind adjusted.  I'm just thankful after all of this time, i finally get the blessing of this surgery.  I just wish i was a lot more excited than i actually am. I almost feel guilty that I'm not jumping for Joy? Anyone else with a similar experience?

Wow. After so long, no wonder you don't know how to feel. Very best wishes to you!

K.

Don't feel guilty! after it sets in You will prob feel very excited :)

After 8 years you're probably just too emotionally exhausted to get excited.  Plus you are dealing with other feelings too that are trumping the excitement.  That was me when I finally hit goal weight.  I was happy, of course, but frankly it was just another day and I was more worried about what maintenance was going to be like.  

Congrats on finally getting approved!  

The eight years shows to be a person with determination. You're a goal achiever. Now since the "goal" of getting approved has been achieved plan the next goal. I'm certain that many of us here are very excited for you, including me! You're on your way to a new healthier body and soul. This is fabulous news for sure!