I'm living After Wls (not the best way)

Food for thought......

 400 lb woman may have already HAD WLS and she is down 200 lbs ? feels great about her new life.

 She is working on herself.......I suggest you work on yours before it's all over ....as in a ride in a slow moving hearse !!

When your dead you don't want to be remembered as the ***** passing out WLS cards and guilt tripping her kids !!

You had WLS to improve/save your life......sounds like you may still have a few details to cover before that happens or die miserable and thin, and alone.

best of luck....life is but a blink of an eye.....live well !

You've got to get a handle on your negative thoughts - either by medication or therapy, or both.  People of all sorts take medications - fat and skinny people.  Medication alone is not going to cause you to regain your weight - because if you do start gaining you'll be able to adjust your eating habits to offset any gain.  You seem to be in a very dark place - I hope you take positive action.

And remember, you don't know the cir****tances of strangers' lives.  As mentioned above, how would you have felt if someone came up to you and basically called you fat?  Live and let live.

Be a friend to yourself - take care of yourself.  Don't worry about others.

You are a beautiful lady I see that from your picture and seems as though you've had many struggles.  How would you have felt if at your highest weight a complete stranger walked up to you and gave you a weight loss surgeons card? Probably not too good I'm sure.  We are all suffering our own battles focus on your family & don't worry about strangers.  Also choose what you say to your family and be kind about it, My own precious Mom has said some pretty hurtful things to me & they resonate with me daily and have caused me to not want to go out in public as much as I used to.  You are fit now maybe you would be a good fitness trainer or something like that then you could really help people in a constructive instead of hurtful way.

The anxiety meds I take are know to not contribute to weight gain. I attribute my continued success to taking this drug. Build up of calcium in the arteries is not from supplements. It is from high blood pressure, high blood sugar and high cholesteral.

You probably started the heart disease before your surgery.

I hope you can come to grips with your attitude to your children. They are adults and need to make their own decisions regarding weight. When my father at 48 had his heart attack it did not change me. When my sister died at 39 of by pass surgery it did not change me. The decision must come from within

When I was Obese people told me I don't look it.I was always told I had a pretty face and always carried my weight well because I am tall, but I was very uncomfortable in my own body and the heart attack back in 04 pushed me to lose weight since heart disease runs in the family

I am not tall but I have been told I was pretty and did not look my weight.But anxiety is so much better with meds.Tell me a family that doesn't have heart disease or cancer?I saw a picture of myself and thought holy crap.I have no regrets on having surgery.I have no regrets on pretty much anything I have done in my life.Just think how much better you feel with riding horses now you are thin?

funny you talk about me riding horses. I lope when I ride and couldn't picture me doing that fat ... I love my horse and want to keep riding

Focus on your horses they seem to make you happy.

That was my biggest motivation for WLS...My lanky saddlebred was tired of carrying my fat ass around! ;)

Hi, Wendy... 

I can empathize about what it means to have genetically predetermined severe cardiovascular disease and strongly likely to die very young, despite age or even blood pressure.  My brother in law had his first (and severe) heart attack at 40 - and not obese.   His father had died early of a heart attack.   He was forced to give up his medical practice.   He had procedures during the years after to open up arteries. 

People don't always realize that even a healthy diet and excellent exercise regimen can offer protection to someone who presents in his early 30's with a total cholesterol neat 600.   The man who started America's obsession with jogging, an incredibly fit man, died of a sudden heart attack - in his fifties. 

And even with statins, my cholesterol only takes a minimal dip.   My doctors take what comfort they can in my high HDL.  

I wanted to address your mix of high blood pressure and years of living with chronic anxiety.  Tranquilizers & antidepressants aren't the answer, I agree.   But anxiety is incredibly impactful on bloid pressure because the adrenaline dangerously constricts the capillaries. 

My cardiologist chaned my beta blocker to a combo (alpga & beta) blocker.  The other component blocks the adrenaline receptors.   It was a terrible first two weeks until the titrating hit an effective level and the side effects ended (shortness of breath especially). 

The adrenaline blocking led to a sudden absence of anxiety (lid is life so different now!).  My blood pressure is so much better controlled now.  It must be taken at 12 hour intervals to keep blood levels stable.

 I take 25 mg of Carvedilol twice a day.  And, of course, still taking my 20 mg of Lisinopril 20 mg (an Ace-inhibitor to relax the capillary wall constricting muscles).  Because of the Carvedilol, I was able to do away with the diuretic that had begun to damage my kidneys. 

Alpha blockers are most certainly used by many psychiatrists to address chronic anxiety, rather than have their patients living with brain changing medications.  

By the way - after my anxiety departed, my strong food drive diminished. 

Love your horse, Princess.  You are so lucky to enjoy taking trail rides cross-country.  :-) 

Theresa