kEEPING THE GIANT UNDER MY FEET

martitalinda
on 12/9/13 7:41 am

...the giant of morbid obesity that is ... it is not easy but I am steady stepping keeping the monster under my feet.... 6 years and 10 months post RNY this past Friday I was too busy to remember but I would not allow myself to forget. I purposed myself to capture my journey with an empiric tool suggested by my sister (RIP) and I have done just that .. it keeps me focused .. it keeps me grounded ... but that is what works for ME ... because after all I have always been a picture AW at whatever body dimension I loved taking pics...

On Saturday DH took me out to dinner and I had a toss up between what gowns I wanted to wear ... my powder blue XS RL or a plum gown I made for myself ...I decided to wear the powder blue with a white faux fur throw ... and I had fun ... we went out with friends from our Oldies Keeping the Flame Going group and even though Al is missing part of his foot it does not bother us ...we dance on the good foot...

I embrace my former fat self ... I AM STILL VERY MUCH THE SAME WOMAN in a smaller frame ... and with new found health and mobility that's all ... fat or slim I remain GOOFY LOL....

I had a choice between this dress...

and this one that I made for myself ... I finally finished it after the sheer overlay was driving me up a wall ... I used the trick mom taught me of sewing it over a layer of paper...

And of course I had to made a comparison collage ..a picture of me on Myrtle Beach the summer before my surgery...

My week was full of goofiness, and laughter and much sadness but I survived and I stayed the course ... being diligent, vigilant and empowering myself with every and anything available to keep the focus on the prize of wellness ...after all I am no spring chicken and I do not need to help my old engine along before it starts falling apart with age by itself ... YIKES .. I will be having my 7th birthday after WLS next week ... this sista is getting OLD...

When I am nervous, or happy, or sad, or glad I find things that appeal to me and comfort me and reward me ... like making dolls or painting or sewing but most of all I love to rock hair ... this was my crazy hair Thursday at home ... DH is snapping my pictures and DS comes in from work and I tell him to stand behind me and he has that WTH? look LOL ... After I had my fill playing around with my hair pieces which I wanted to use with my gowns I decided against it because the static was sooooooooooo bad I was about to electrocute myself ... LOL... Oh and the nutty t-shirt a gift from DS when my DD was hospitalized over a year ago...

but nothing really changed you see? I was farting around with my hair when I was fat too ... after all it is our business on the side...

at the end of the day this thread makes no sense... please take no offense.. I am just a sista on the journey tracking my progress in my digital empowerment journal "A Picture A Day, Keeps the Pounds and the Inches Away" it is a goofy tool that works for me ... as well a my furry poodles on a cooooooooolllllllllllddddddddddddd night..

AND ON SUNDAY I GOT TO CELEBRATE DIA DE LAS MADRES ... Panamanian Mother's Day is on December 8th ... I had an awesome dinner prepped by DH and DD and to which I wore my red gown .. because after all there is an awesome feeling putting on a gown and sitting at the dining table with the loved ones ... just because...

YUP I AM KEEPING THAT GIANT CALLED MORBID OBESITY UNDER MY FEET ... ONE DAY AT A TIME... ONE CHOICE AT A TIME ... and if he gets up and TRIES to overpower me I am going to pull a David and Goliath on his arse... LOL...

BEFORE ... that fat woman is me ... her deliverance is my release and my release is her deliverance... THANKS OH FOR ALLOWING ME TO SHARE .... SNIPPETS OF MY JOURNEY...