Excitement/Reflection

I got my surgery date and I'm just so excited. I read a post asking about what would you like to do? It really hit me ALL of the things my weight has stopped me from doing. All of life's little things that I have truly been missing. I've been overweight since I was a kid so I've just adjusted to it. But reading that post made me realize that I had been longing for normalcy. I just want to be able to buy regular clothes and not worry about being stuck in a booth, or getting a cramp when I bend over to tie my shoe or the 1 thing in life I want so badly, the ability to conceive. My weight has my cycle all out of whack so I haven't been able to conceive a child. So as I embark on this journey, I realize this is it. I have been given the tool to get the weight off and I visualize myself being successful. Failure is not an option. Food can no longer be the crutch that carries me through life or hinders me. I know there will be struggles, because I have a serious relationship with food, but just thinking about all of the things I've been missing and all of the things I've endured b/c of my weight, I'm ready to break up with my love of food.

I see your BMI is 57. Have you researched a procedure called the Duodenal Switch? I know your surgeon doesn't do this procedure, but you owe it to yourself to research ALL your options before you go under the knife.

The DS has the very best long-term, maintained weight-loss stats for patients of any size, but this is especially true for those of us with a BMI greater than 50. Also, the DS has the very best stats for resolving or preventing co-morbs like diabetes and high cholesterol, while allowing the most liberal post-op eating. (DSers malabsorb 80% of the FAT we eat---so we eat a lot of it, while still having cholesterol numbers around 100.)

Hi MsBatt, I have heard of the DS, but my insurance has already approved the sleeve. Everything is set to go. But I do know this, if I'm going to be successful at ANYTHING, I'm going to have to change. If I can just get this jumpstart, I've made a vow to myself to do the work. I was heavy b4 I knew anything about taking care of myself. It's just time to start doing the right thing. I praise God everyday that my only Co-morbidity is hbp. I don't have a problem with cholesterol nor diabetes. Thank God. I know this journey will not be easy but I'm prepared to do my part. I have to. I will look at it though!! Thanks!!

The Sleeve would definitely be my second choice---in fact, it's the stomach portion of the DS. I've found it very easy to live with.

Good luck!

I could have written the same post. It is crazy how I would just adjust to life around me. But since surgery I am going to live life to the fullest. I plan on going zip  lining with my kids, play with them in the sand vs watch them from a to small beach chair. I hope your dreams of having a baby come true! I can tell you my relationship with food has changed. I look at the bad stuff with disgust and the healthy stuff craving to eat it but scared at the same time. I just on pureed and scared to eat but I force myself to eat. You will do great!!!! Congrats

Thanks! It's funny how you have these feelings on the inside, but I didn't have the words for them until I started reading the things I missed out on.

Good luck on your journey , its a amazing feeling to be able to do the things that you haven't done in years .Just to walk without giving out of breath.