SWANS/JULY ENDING AND GETTING USED TO.... SNIPPETS...

 Is it me or is the year just flying by? it seems like in the blink of an eye it was January and now it is July ending ... what gives? slow down TIME or catch me if you can LOL....

This is another day of me sharing a goofy thread related to my journey that is my walk away from morbid obesity .... one day at a time ... one choice at a time.... I try to empower myself collectively by logging on here ... my site of choice since 2007 when I first joined ....

I have picked up my first love ... my brushes and my palette and have this urge to paint and I am wayyyyyyyyy out of my comfort zone .... I love to draw/sketch/paint people ... I have been doing this since I was able to hold a crayon .... but then .. someone on the unmoderated board shared a hummingbird live cam and another of eagles ... and as I watched the beauty and wonder of these beautiful creatures of nature I decided to paint them ... first on a mural on my busted wall ... a wall where for years my son crashed things and himself against as he struggled with his illness which is now addressed and under control ... of all the things that he broke he NEVER ever broke or pitched or tossed anything that I had painted .... so I painted a mural on the wall in 2010 ... and the pounding stopped ... I used to refer to it as my wall of shame because of feeling of failure re my son's diagnosis and then I called it my wall of pain as I would try to stand in between him and the wall to avoid him hurting himself ,.. like the time his hand was in an external fixator because of a fracture and he was trying to cra**** into the wall ... manic depressive is no joke ... but together as a family we persevere ... and why am I off on a tangent? My thread is so not about my busted wall .. that I have since painted not one but TWO murals over? 

Ah... hummingbirds ... I stepped out of my comfort zone and painted hummingbirds never thinking I could pull it off ... my eyes are trained to zone in on people and recall and be able to paint a good capture though I never ever make an exact match ... but animals are a different story and so are landscapes ... although I could paint them I have to think whereas with people I just splatter and paint ...  my mural was the perfect platform for practicing on the hummingbirds ... and I have shared not only my mural but a couple of canvases I painted for a couple of OH cyperfriends on here (and no I have NEVER charged for my art ,,, my talent is a gift and a hobby and a passion)... 

Last night I revisited two canvases that I had been working on and I had set aside ... they did no justice to the subjects ... SWANS ... beautiful creatures that were captured by an OH sister with awesome photography prowess on her daily walks .... I tried painting them ... and each time I did them no justice....

Determined not to give up ... and to do a bit of justice to Heidi's swans ... I took my brushes and my palette and once again worked with heavy acrylics in layers and came up with this ... UNFINISHED DRAFT... IT IS STILL NOT RIGHT.... IT IS A WORK IN PROGRESS... LIKE WE ALL ARE....

 

I even did a couple more washes early this morning ... already dressed for work....
 

Allowing the canvas to dry while I am at work would allow me to work on it more tonight and I will also work on the second canvas with the single swan too....

I am still trying to get used to my SPOCK bangs look ... YUP .. it figures ... I pissed my son off lecturing him and then asked him to give me an edge up .... not such a wise idea ... tick a person off and hand them clippers and wonder WHY my bangs look like Spock's ... but I rocked it anyway...

This is my empowerment collage today ... 5 years 5 months post RNY ... I take a picture a day for my digital empowerment journal ... because a picture a day keeps the pounds and the inches away....
 

and now my break is over .. it is the end of the month for all these reports are due YIKES ... it is going to be a busy crazy day .... so I will wrap this up and enjoy my daily apple ... no idea what kind of apples my DH picked up ... they are not my favorite Galas ... dufus had been slicing up my apples and giving them to the ferrets as treat ... did I say DUFUS? ... so I sent him to fetch me apples at the store and he brings back two bags of these red marble sized tiny apples that are hard and crunchy and sweet ... so he is forgiven LOL.... 

I figured since I have Spock bangs now why not change my lens color too? WOOT ... goofy am I...
 

I will snack on my apple... twiddle my toes and get busy until another break ....

Have an AWESOME day everyone.... thanks for allowing me to share another goofy thread...

OMG I am crying, really crying, for the second time today.  I came upon a car accident on my way to work and cried the entire ride in and now seeing the beauty you have painted of my beloved swans.  You really are an angel, seriously, really, I don't gush over people, but I believe you are a higher being that has a special power.  I am so thankful to you for being you.

Love you sweetie!

 ((((((((((((Heidi)))))))))))) sorry you got upset this morning with that accident ... I hope everyone is okay ... I hate coming upon accidents or injured people/animals ... I always say a prayer for whoever they are when I do...

Hey ... don't cry ... I have been working on the geese for a while .... there is that beautiful single one I just can't seem to capture the water and the rocks the way I want to ... I will post it tonight ... there was nothing altruistic in me painting these ... I did it for my own personal pleasure and because I can't possible sew another stitch of clothing ... I packed away my project runway sewing machine ... I am painting furiously because I have been fretting and worrying myself sick about my sister ... painting gives me rest and much enjoyment ... so see ... I am so far removed from being a higher being of any sort ...I did it for my own selfish reasons and if I could share it with someone else WIN.WIN....

So sista don't cry ... I will hand you these when we meet up ... I PMd you with tentative dates....so start smiling ...  girl I am so far removed from that description you gave of me that you will ROFL at your comment when you meet me ... I am a mess LOL but a bless mess nonetheless ... a higher power loves me just as jacked up as I am and so does Al ... and my family .... and my friends or so I choose to believe...

Thanks for allowing me to paint your swans... I did them no justice at all compared to your awesome photography....

The swans are beautiful!  I sure envy your talent!

 Thank you Sandy ... I'll be out of here in 15 minutes ... going home to relax a bit ... spend some quality time with my family and furry kritters ... take a nap in my hammock and then working on canvas #2.... totally relaxing ...

Your talent is as awesome as your personality. :-)