2 months pre-op and i'm eating like a pig!

i don't think i have an eating disorder most people overweight over eat, i never ate this way before up until i decided to have surgery. through out my life i have managed to control my eating and actually loose weight, whats been hard is maintaining the weight loss and this is the last time i regain more then what i loose. thank you for your advice and its definitely one to consider but i have made up my mind to use this tool to change my life.

 I know exactly how you feel!
To qualify for my surgery, I had to lose 5% of my body mass. Starting weight was 307, and through walking and diet change I got down to 267. During the weeks BEFORE my surgery I gained about 30 pounds from eating non-stop b/c I had the same fears as you. My doctor still performed the surgery, and now I am 3 weeks post-op.
All I can say, is that you will eventually get back to the point where you can eat the foods you love, you will just be eating a lot less of it. Like if you went out to eat you could share a plate with someone or order your own meal and have it for a week! But you would still be eating but you like!
Remember there is a reson you're doing this and it's not b/c you want to gorge yourself the rest of your life. You gotta remember your goals and expectations and stick to them. Yes, it's going to take months to get back to where you can eat the foods you love, but your health is most important.

Thank you so much for the positive feed back, i guess its just a phase some of us go through before surgery. my doctor is not requiring any weight loss from me but i would sure love to loose some weight pre-op so the numbers are better post op!

Begin practicing new behaviors with small steps now. No time like the present.

You're right, this is a major lifestyle change, and that is scary and hard, but you can begin practicing new habits. Now, moving into the future. Come surgery time, you will be grateful because you will have a leg up.

You will be able to eat stuff again in moderation sometime down the road. But see what you can do now. WLS is not some magic that will turn everything around, including your brain and bad habits.

One day at a time. And I agree with Chris. Get support NOW.

i agree that i should start making changes now and i definitely need supp or,t but like most people that do this surgery i have also tried everything that's out there to loose weight and failed, this is an extreme decision for me and i feel like its the only way out. i know i have to change my mentality and i am willing to do anything necessary. but even to change the way my brain thinks i need this tool for its restriction.

The surgery will not change the way you think. It will provide restriction, but it is entirely possible to eat around it. That's just the reality we are all up against. Surgery can turn into just another failed diet.

I think the way we work with our brain has to come first. I do understand your urges, but it is essential to learn to not give in to our urges, our feelings, our destructive thoughts. That takes more work than weight loss, I assure you. And, again, no time like the present to begin practicing!

I had to wait 2 months from my first visit until my surgery in 2002 and I had what I called my around the world eating tour.  I made sure I ate food of every ethnic group.  I soon found out that my eating days were far from over.
With my revision I had 8 days to prepare for surgery.  I was so sick I didn't even care about eating.  My "last meal" the night before my surgery was a prime rib dinner at a local restaurant.  I have been back there many times and still have the same meal.  The only difference is I don't eat the bread and that same meal will feed me for at least 2 more meals.