Yaaaaa... I Regret This Wls. PLease Read Espically Reseachers on Wls

I have no anxiety related to my WLS.  You post seems very much out in left field to me.  I am a professional, and I live on a schedule to start with. I don't miss my vitamins anymore than I miss my thyroid meds or my 8:30am morning meeting.

Do I have anxiety? Sure.  My job? Yeah. I worked 120 hours last week prepping for my annual budget meeting that was pushed up a week.  My marriage? Sure, but mostly because I haven't yet convinced my husband that I need a sister-wife to get the housekeeper (which I don't have but need), pool service, dog walker, and lawn-service off the payroll.  My house? absolutely. Without said sister-wife, it's a ****hole right now.  These are all good problems to have as being employed, busy, and having a lovely home are better than the alternatives.  WLS isn't a magical 'fix.'

You're making a heck of a presumption in suggesting that you would have less anxiety if you had lost the weight on your own. Who says you would have kept it off?  Given 95% of people who are MO who lose weight regain it all if not more, you'd most likely be fighting a whole different set of problems like massive weight regain and the anxiety THAT brings. 

I'd see a therapist, ASAP.
 

Your heart problems were already issues long before WLS it would appear by your own dates on your stents and open heart surgery. Are you saying your nearly 100% excess weight loss was compromised because of your heart issues? I'm confused.

You didn't have any complications with WLS but obviously having LOTS of health issues because of your heart issues. Do you seriously think you could have lost the weight on your own? Then why didn't you? I know I couldn't have done it.How in the world could losing the weight--with no side effects--be wrong after the fact?

Having WLS doesn't repair a heart. Losing the weight SURE makes it easier for your heart to function, I can tell you that. I'm pretty sure you're doing more exercise BECAUSE of your WLS. If you have heart issues that lead to exhaustion and forgetfulness, that's a heart issue, not a WLS issue. Can you compare how fatigued you were 110 lbs ago to today?

I'm gonna throw this out there, and I completely empathize with your battle, but I think perhaps you expected TOO much out of any WLS. I'm sorry you cannot experience any amusement parks or hot tubs but I'll bet the hot tub is also a heart-related issue: too hot. WLS does not cure heart disease, but I would have to say that your heart is in MUCH better shape than it was 110 pounds ago!! Did you ride horses at your preop weight? I'd say that was a plus right there.  

I would have to think that being healthier and still having to take blood pressure meds is not the end of the world.....or am I over-reacting? I think there is some true anxiety there, and meds and/or therapy can help you through this.

I still have to think you're in better shape now. ;-)

Huskergal, you sound very distressed and I'm sorry you're experiencing that.  We've all felt distressed and anxious at one point and yours sounds overwhelming and constant.

I hope you can find the strength to discuss it with your primary care physician or with a therapist.  I understand resisting adding more medicines or going to see yet another doctor.  But in your case it sounds like it might really help you.  

I hope you find the help you need.

Take care,
Amy 

Huskergal, I've read your posts on and off and am truly sorry you are having a hard time. I have a severe panic disorder and sometimes can't even leave my home (even medicated) so I totally get what you are going through with the panic.

But have you ever thought that you may have been much WORSE off today had you not had the surgery and lost the weight? Because I can guarantee that MO exacerbates every single sypmtom you have - yes, even anxiety.

I hope and pray you find some peace with the eventual recognition that our bodies decay and detiorate with/without WLS - simply through the aging and other processes. Maybe focusing for a while on the fact that you would be much, much sicker 100 lbs heavier, and that your mobility would be even more restricted as well would help.

If you're not gonna take the meds that will help you, they do have doctors now who specialize in non-rx treatment of anxiety. Many addicts can not/choose not to take the benzo tranqs and so a whole little subset of docs has sprung up to help them deal with the anxiety without using the drugs. Do you have psychiatrist/psychologist? Even a call to your local Community Health Center should be able to send you in a good direction as far as getting started finding some help for your panic.

My very best hopes for you in finding the peace you seek.



ETA: Sorry everyone - just realized I had replied to an old post and probably accidentlally bumped it back up.  I need to be better at looking at post dates when I'm doing my OH catch-up-on-everyone routine=)

"I don't think I need therapy for anxiety on this issue."

Honestly, I've thought you needed therapy from the very first post I read by you on this site several years ago. 

I'm just hoping that this post is a sign you are finally ready to seek the help you so desperately need.

I have not had surgery yet so I cannot speak on that I had to say...I have anxiety, I developed pretty badly about a year ago. I told my doctor about it and she gave prozac. I only take 20mg, some people get the giggles when they here how little I take. But you know what? It is perfect for me to take "the edge off". There is NOTHING wrong with admitting you need meds and deciding to take them.

I remember with my first born being so sad because nothing went as planned...I had to have pitocen, had to have an epidural, was in labor 28 hours, pushed for 4, just to have a c-section!!! I was devastated. Heart broken. Nothing went like I wanted it to and like I felt I "deserved". But you know what? I had this gorgeous little baby as a reward at the end. That erased everything. It didn't matter HOW he got there, he got there.

My point is, it doesn't matter how you find your own personal happiness or personal peace, as long as you get there. I truly hope you find. Life is good. It really is. (And this is coming from a girl who is still fat!) LOL.

Take care.

Nicely said.