Snippets ...not needing the WAMBULANCE....sharing my journal entry...

 Yesterday I got thrown for a loop by an email sent to me by my beautiful daughter .. an otherwise very healthy athletic young woman recently diagnosed with dermatomyositis ...

I freaked out when I got the email ... sent to me right after I left home for work yesterday ... my journal entry looked like this .. on yesterday morning...

DD JUST EMAILED ME THIS ... IT MADE ME CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY............ I NEED THE WAMBULANCE!!!!!!! she sent me the following e-mail with the picture of us attached ... a picture we had taken about a year ago .... or was it that long? I can't even remember ... the two of us ... right after her giving a zumba class ... and her subject line struck me ... hard ... when she says Oh How The Mighty Have fallen....and she attaches our year old picture.... oh my heart ached for her ... so strong and healthy and always joyous and still is today dealing with her diagnosis and treatment for dermatomyositis....

From: Candice XXXX 
To: "[email protected]" 
Sent: Tuesday, July 19, 2011 8:28 AM
Subject: Oh How the Mighty Have fallen...

This was just a year ago....   

  

but but but but.... I TURNED THAT FEELING OF ACHE AND SADNESS AROUND REAL QUICK .... just yesterday she went to physical therapy and she posted on Facebook that "FEEL MY MUSCLES WAKING UP" .... YAYYYYYYYYYYY .....so I don't need the wambulance now ...OHHHHHHH SHE SAYS HER MUSCLES ARE WAKING UP!!! SHE CAN NOW FEEL THEM!!! OH  I AM NOT STRESSED ... I AM BLESSED .... SHE IS FEELING HER MUSCLES AGAIN.... SHE GOT INTO THE BATHROOM ALONE AGAIN.... THIS MORNING SHE GOT DRESSED MOSTLY BY HERSELF AGAIN .... SHE GOT UP FROM THE TOILET ALONE WITHOUT ASSISTANCE FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS MORNING ... SHE WAS ABLE TO GET UP OUT OF BED ALONE THIS MORNING WITHOUT ASSISTANCE ...

YAYYYYYYYYYYY I DON'T NEED THE WAMBULANCE I AM SHOUTING AND PRAISING AND CELEBRATING... MY DAUGHTER IS MOVING ON HER OWN A LITTLE BIT MORE EACH AND EVERY DAY AGAIN .... I AM NOT STRESSED... I AM BLESSED!

I AM NOT STRESSED ...I AM BLESSED!
I AM NOT STRESSED... I AM BLESSED!

F@#@ THE WAMBULANCE ... I AM TOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED WITH THE DEVIL'S MESS!!!!! 

MY DAUGHTER IS MOVING AGAIN!!!!

AND I REPLIED TO HER SAYING ... DON'T WORRY BABY ... YOU ARE NOT FALLEN!!!! YOU ARE MIGHTY STILL INDEED ... YOU WILL GET THERE AGAIN SOON ... IN THE INTERIM OCCUPY ... YOU ARE BLESSED!!!!

Her muscles are impaired by this disease of sudden onset ...  that I have been having to assist her in all her ADLs including her not being able to stand from a sitting position, raise her arms or flex/extend hands wrists without great challenges ... but she is doing it on her own again now ... little by little ... with love. care. and tons of TLC from family and friends .... she is getting back up on her own AGAIN ... YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY I CELEBRATE!!!

As I celebrate my health and my mobility each and every day .... my husband is back in a cast with Charcot foot on one extremity and I am able to assist both DD and DH with help of my son and myself ... I would have been hard pressed to do that 4 years and 5 months ago with my mobility impaired by morbid obesity and 5 related co-morbidities ALL IN REMISSION TODAY...

My before and after ... the same woman in a smaller frame ... 

This is my journal entry in my empowerment journal a picture a day keeps the pounds and the inches at away.....

I wore this yesterday afternoon ... sitting on my deck enjoying quality time with my family and my ferrets...

Over the weekend I stayed in ... the house was clean ... the laundry done ... We canceled our event where we were going out with our group of friends in our club Oldies Keeping the Flame Going ... DH foot was hurting and he was recently casted so we decided to say in...

I amused myself in our huge old house ... I spent quality time with my family,,, with my sewing machine ... with my ferrets an with my paintbrushes and my canvas ...

I painted a few canvases to send out to my OH friends .... and shared on my OH group Share-it! opened to all .... no sales pitch here ..my talent is a gift and thusly treated ... no prices or strings attached to it ever...

Iris at her Steampunk event...

Alapaula and her horse ...

I also did sketches during the week ... here is one of our beautiful OH sista Natonna..


My cir****tances do not dictate my outcome... I am destined to be joyous and I am destined to be free ... I embrace joy and make it happen to me each and every day ... Joy is not a feeling and is not based on happy or sad... it is not based on material things ... and is not predicated upon the words of men .. as a believer I say the Joy of the Lord is my Strength .... my very dear friend embraces JOY as her inner strength and shared these wonderful words with me... I have them as my wallpaper and I painted a beautiful canvas of them to send on to her...

 ..."there is misery and joy in equal parts in this world. Misery will find us if we make ourselves a target. Joy is just waiting for us to acknowledge it. I find joy every day in all parts of my life and I just let it happen to me. Misery is there but I'm sure as hell not going to invite it in".....

Thanks for allowing me to share ... snippets of my journey ... 

You are invited to join us ... see link in signature line....

Your paintings and sketches just keep getting better and better Marti! I really like the gown you sketched on Natonna. I still want to know what color you imagine it to be.

 I am thinking gold as you suggested .... here is the picture with Candice and Tanya I was telling you about ... yup I shared your note with her yesterday and told her she will be back indeed .. and she says she feels it...

Side by side smiling you can really see how much Marta and Candice look alike. 

MsMartita you are like your DD's Mini Me   . 

    MUCH LUV mi hermana!


Cir****tances do not dictate outcome.  So true!  Lemons are not always suitable for lemonade but they can also be an astringent or a cleanser/ degreaser.  There are many ways to turn negative cir****tances into something of value. 

I am so glad beautiful Candace is feeling her muscles again.  You know I can identify with the emotional impact  of betrayal by your own body.  She is overcoming this with poise and grace.  Perhaps not yet lemonade; but, she is using that lemon to clean away the dirt and grime negative experiences deposit on you.  With the way clean and clear, she can see herself making that lemonade.

The mean spirited, small minded, petty, be grudged, frightened, impotent, etc etc... take a lesson.  Adversity can hand you a lemon and take you there to that negative part of yourself.  But you can empower yourself with that same lemon and clean away the grime blocking your view. 

We can taste the bitter lemon mired in the grime of building negativity.  We can use the acid to cleanse that same grime and see our way to the sweet.  The choice is ours. 

No chewing that bitter lemon here.  I'm so pleased Candice made the positive choice.  

Mi hermana linda!!!! Thank you much ... she is in good spirits and we had good news with the CPK continuing to drop ...I can't wait till they get to the 100s and lower ... so far they are 8000 better than 17000 where they were at.... She is in good spirits and in good company... he brother has been catering to her along with myself and Al and all her tons of friends, students and co-workers... even the furry family members are in on this...
 
and my dear son KenKen just stepped up to the plate and is being the perfect strong guy in the house... here he goes with his dufus self giving Candie a ferret show with Chiquitita and Finigan Beau...

Sorry to hear about your daughters illness, but thrilled that she is doing better! Hoping she can make a full recovery.

Btw...........I have to ask............How tall is your daughter???

 Thank you Maria ... while this is an illness she will have to live with it can and will be brought into full remission and she will be able to resume all the normal activities of her life ... it may take some time to get her there but she is already progressing well and is in good spiritsand responding well to treatment.  She is 6'2".

I mistakenly replied to you with Quick Reply.. which is killing me on here! Anyway..

I am so happy to hear your DD is on the road to recovery, and I am so glad you are holding her spirit up until she is stronger on her own. She will be back to where she wants to be soon- stronger even.

My DD was given a sewing machine for her bday (she turns 10 on Fri!)- by a complete stranger.. it was such a sweet and lucky thing.. She is looking do forward to making her own clothes. She even said to me, Mommy it will be awesome that you wont have to spend so much money buying clothes for me when I can make my own. My kids amaze me sometimes.. I do not know how to sew at all, so she and I are gonna have to learn together!

 I love love love the beautiful avie!!! AWESOME!!!....

Thank you much for the well wishes ... she will be back and stronger indeed ... I am believing that....

HOW AWESOME A GIFT ... A SEWING MACHINE ... GIRL WHAT FUN YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE WITH YOUR DAUGHTER .... I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU BOTH ... SEW AWAY MY DEAR... TRUST .. YOU CAN DO IT!!!