sometimes i feel like lisa marie sohr...

Yes.Yes I feel the same way. I dont think that in her mind we were equals and now that others see us as close to equals or even attractive in different ways it is not so good for her.I am going to get into a thankful mindset and realize that living vicariously through another person ( I must have been doing this from reading my post) is not normal, nor is a really a friendship. One sided is not balanced and it's not ok for me or you anymore.Thanks for your honesty.