My Dear Beloved OH Friends I Have some very sad news

I have not been on here in a while because. My Husband ( You can see pics of him on my profile page) His bipolar finally took him away from us. He is with my dear Jesus. I never thought I could hurt so deep. I loved my buddy with my whole heart. He loved me at 270 as much as he loved before he died.  They are giving him a full military honors funeral on Saturday. Any widows out there, I would love to know how you go on. 
         He adored me! Why I don't quite know. But now I feel kind of hopeless. I know this is a temporary feeling. But boy it is a rotten way to feel! I am 199.5 now. But I'm not so excited now. All I can say is why! I do know that God is good all the time. Even when things don't make sense. I have to trust. My question to you christian friends is I want to make sure that he sees all the honers done for him is there any thing in scripture that says that they can see from above! Because in this life toward the end he thought he was a nothing! Even though we tried to tell him he as great. The depression spoke louder! My kids and I want to talk to him is it real that he can hear us. I love you wonderful compassionate people and thank you I couldn't have done this surgery of make the life style changes with out you. But with out David around its not so exciting any more. As a memorial to my hubby please read my profile and look at my family pics and make comments so I  can read them to him. He loved you guys too. 

So, so sorry for such a tragic loss for you and your family. I do believe you can speak to those beyond the grave-I talk to my Grandma sometimes, and she has been gone for years. Stay strong and time will heal your wounds even though it seems so hopeless now.
-Wanda

My heart goes our to you and your family !! I believe that he can and will watch over you and knows how much he is loved !

Keep your faith as you continue on this journey - and stay strong because it's more important now than ever to take of YOU !!

My prayers and thoughts !

this is very tragic.  i cannot express how sorry i am for such a loss.  :( 

Tami ,
S0 sorry for your loss.  My son was a disabled vet and i lost him too in May 2009.  I am still trying to believe it ..  I understand your pain.
hugs and prayers
Shirl

So sorry for your loss...I can;t even imagine what you are going through - my prayers are with you and your family.

oh my...I am SO sorry for your loss!! I can NOT even imagine what you are going through, but you and your family will be in my thoughts...
I am sure he is looking down on you and he is SO proud of you...I can only imagine how this is not very exciting to go through without him with you...but please continue it FOR him! Please take care...I am off to look through your pics!
hugs!

Tami you and your family will be in my prayers.  I will pray for your strength and peace.

The hurt will change the way you view.  You will always miss your soulmate, but the greatest thing you said about him is he died a Christian.  Your husband is gone, but at rest--focus there.  Keep thanking God for what is left and what you have.  Thank him daily for something you remember about your husband.  Before you know it, your memories will become so positive, that your hurt will be reduced.  Not gone, but manageable.  I lost my mother in 1999 and it is still a daily walk.  My faith caused me to refocus on blessings around me; it helps.

Please, look at all the memories he left with you.  Look at your family who shared him with you.  You will see the blessings.

Buy a notebook and write down your thoughts and conversations with him.  Your family will appreciate them--share them with your children later and it will give them insight into what you are going through and why you loved him so much. 

Keep him alive by volunteering to help military families or other people who have challenges similar to yours.  By blessing others,  God will remember you and ease your spirit. 

Tami, my heart is breaking for you.  Hang onto your faith, gather your strength there.   While I have not lost my spouse I have had MANY losses in my life and at the beginning you merely put on foot in front of the other and keep moving, after time, you can do a little more, and eventually, you can function on a somewhat normal level.  The pain, is always there but it does get a little easier.   I will be praying for you.