Lost my 21 year old brother need prayers.
Dearest Renee,
I've seen you have your hardships through the years here at OH. I've been a member for a long time and have watched your triumphs and your struggles.
Since I've become a paramedic, I've seen alot of death and cannot explain why things happen the way they do. I am not a religious person really, more spiritual, and I do believe that there is a higher power out there with a wonderful plan for all of us. I've witnessed two people die in front of me talking about a beautiful light and how they were not afraid to go to it. I cannot explain this as I have no answer...only questions that perhaps will be answered in my own time of death.
Your brother was a precious person and it sounds as if he was needed elsewhere.
I know there are no words I can say that can ease your pain at this time. I can only hope that you will continue your meetings at this time because the pain can often be very difficult to manage alone.
I have a son in Iraq right now fighting for our freedom and I too fear for his life on a secondly basis. My own addictions want to rear their ugly heads to say use me to ease the pain. Lean on loved ones at this time honey, it will save you.
You are in my heart and thoughts at this time.
Please know you are loved and cared for very much.
Love to you..
Donna
I've seen you have your hardships through the years here at OH. I've been a member for a long time and have watched your triumphs and your struggles.
Since I've become a paramedic, I've seen alot of death and cannot explain why things happen the way they do. I am not a religious person really, more spiritual, and I do believe that there is a higher power out there with a wonderful plan for all of us. I've witnessed two people die in front of me talking about a beautiful light and how they were not afraid to go to it. I cannot explain this as I have no answer...only questions that perhaps will be answered in my own time of death.
Your brother was a precious person and it sounds as if he was needed elsewhere.
I know there are no words I can say that can ease your pain at this time. I can only hope that you will continue your meetings at this time because the pain can often be very difficult to manage alone.
I have a son in Iraq right now fighting for our freedom and I too fear for his life on a secondly basis. My own addictions want to rear their ugly heads to say use me to ease the pain. Lean on loved ones at this time honey, it will save you.
You are in my heart and thoughts at this time.
Please know you are loved and cared for very much.
Love to you..
Donna
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brachioplasty 7/11/07
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brachioplasty 7/11/07
Breast reduction/lift and axilla repair 9/5/07
Mons reduction and L arm brachioplasty repair 01/02/08
Tummy tuck with Anchor cut 3/12/08
Lower body lift TBA
Hi Renee, believe me, I know the pain you are in. Only time helps. Here is a portion of my profile--read it when you feel like it:
August 2008
I have put this off long enough. Time for an update.
It has been one year, this month, since I was hospitalized and almost died. So many things have happened since I last posted in Oct 07. I don't even know where to start...where I left off I guess:
I did try going back to work but was not able to. I took a medical retirement. The lack of oxygen to my brain, while on the vent, left me with short term memory loss, focus and concentration problems. I have been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I still have lung issues. I have pleural thickening in my left lung that will probably never resolve. It causes pain when I breath deep, yawn, or cough hard. My pulmonologist said I will have to learn to live with it. It is my badge of survival from Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome.
Aside of the health problems, my personal life has taken many blows. The God(s) decided to deal my family a horrible hand and it is hard to understand and come to terms with it. In chronological order:
In March of 2006, my niece and her husband were at Daytona Bike Week. They were stopped at a redlight and someone plowed into the back of them. My nephew, Jody Driggers, died instantly from head injuries and my niece was severely injured. It took her a year to recover and be able to walk normally.
On Dec 9th of 2007, my sister's husband died from a head injury. He had been clearing land and a pine tree that was being lifted by a bulldozer swung loose and he wa**** in the head. This BIL is the father of my niece whose husband died. You follow me so far?
Jul 20th, 2008, my niece, Alicia Driggers, died from a head injury she received when the golf cart she was riding in flipped near Augusta, Georgia. She died 3 hours later. This is the niece whose husband and father died.
My family is reeling and can't understand what is going on. Add my near-death illness to the pot, and it is just too overwhelming to deal with. I believe we are all walking around in a daze. My heart hurts for my sister--she lost her husband last Dec and her daughter this July. She is a strong lady, but, how much can one person take?
Of course, to add to it, your name is my niece's middle name (Alicia Renee Wynn Driggers)...While every person's grief is very personal--I am there with you.
Lots of love,
Patty
August 2008
I have put this off long enough. Time for an update.
It has been one year, this month, since I was hospitalized and almost died. So many things have happened since I last posted in Oct 07. I don't even know where to start...where I left off I guess:
I did try going back to work but was not able to. I took a medical retirement. The lack of oxygen to my brain, while on the vent, left me with short term memory loss, focus and concentration problems. I have been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I still have lung issues. I have pleural thickening in my left lung that will probably never resolve. It causes pain when I breath deep, yawn, or cough hard. My pulmonologist said I will have to learn to live with it. It is my badge of survival from Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome.
Aside of the health problems, my personal life has taken many blows. The God(s) decided to deal my family a horrible hand and it is hard to understand and come to terms with it. In chronological order:
In March of 2006, my niece and her husband were at Daytona Bike Week. They were stopped at a redlight and someone plowed into the back of them. My nephew, Jody Driggers, died instantly from head injuries and my niece was severely injured. It took her a year to recover and be able to walk normally.
On Dec 9th of 2007, my sister's husband died from a head injury. He had been clearing land and a pine tree that was being lifted by a bulldozer swung loose and he wa**** in the head. This BIL is the father of my niece whose husband died. You follow me so far?
Jul 20th, 2008, my niece, Alicia Driggers, died from a head injury she received when the golf cart she was riding in flipped near Augusta, Georgia. She died 3 hours later. This is the niece whose husband and father died.
My family is reeling and can't understand what is going on. Add my near-death illness to the pot, and it is just too overwhelming to deal with. I believe we are all walking around in a daze. My heart hurts for my sister--she lost her husband last Dec and her daughter this July. She is a strong lady, but, how much can one person take?
Of course, to add to it, your name is my niece's middle name (Alicia Renee Wynn Driggers)...While every person's grief is very personal--I am there with you.
Lots of love,
Patty
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