Carb Addiction

This may be rambling but I am trying to get this out as it is happening.
I am a carb addict-welcome to my world.
I work at night from 4-midnight and this is the danger zone. I am busy with 2-4 small children all day and my eating in usually minimal and not too bad.It is when I get here that all bets are off. I bring my dinner and snacks but do occasionally go out.
Tonight I am alone so I can't leave this room to get to the vending machine or the kitchen out back where there are probably left over Holiday treats. I have been pretty much indulging in fudge, cookies, lemon squares etc for days as they are dropped off by the box full here at work and at home. Well the chuck wagon is over and I am DETOXING.
This is fine as I need to get back on the straight and narrow. I am having a Click shake with added chocolate protein powder once a day so my protein intake has been much better but I am still feeding my chocolate demon.
The big point is how I feel. I am eating food that is decent as that is what I brought but I am looking in every crack and crevice for some crack. A leftover stale cookie under my desk??? Anything....I have looked in the fridge 5 times and in my tote bag to the bottom hoping a candy cane is loose and not covered with lint in the bottom. I am not normal - I know exactly where the last Lindt super dark chocolate bar is in my house and I have 52 minutes before I will be home. I am eating anything just to try to fill this hole. Cottage cheese- NOT, Cheese and some ww crackers-NOT. I am eating these things to try to fill a hole that seems to be calling for some peanut M&M's.
Where do you go with this?? I am writing as it is fresh in my head. I want to read it tomorrow to remind myself how crazy I am.
Do you think it I call my Psych team and explain it like this they will commit me?? I need a candy detox. That is only slightly a joke.
I have been to my local support group and when I try to go here other patients only reply with " You didn't have surgery to make these choices, blah,blah,blah" I end up angry and frustrated.
In fact I was told I would not be able to tolerate sugar and that was a huge factor in why I decided to have surgery. Well I am one of the "lucky" ones and I can tolerate a decent amount of sugar. I am having occasional low blood sugar issues but I am learning my tolerance level and can satisfy my addiction and still be in the safe zone.
Where do I go from here? I have been seeing a diabetic nutritionist to help with the low blood sugar issues and she said I need to find out what I am feeding.  I don't feel like I am feeding anything but I know I really want that Lindt bar right now.

Oh, my dear!

I could have written that post!

It's an addition -- but at least you KNOW that, and will ultimately find a way to stop re-victimizing yourself.

Hello...my name is Jess and I am a carb, chocolate, coffee addict.  I feel your pain girl!!

Hello there Fooseberry!

So many of us experience the carb demon.... to your credit, much of our carb cravings are often associated with hormonal changes.... I know as I am sometimes more hormonal, my carb intake is out of control.... wishing you all the best...

I've found myself doing that many time...eating other stuff...although "healthier"...to avoid the CRAP I really wanted...and in the end I ate the CRAP anyways...so instead of say 400 cals from CRAP I had 400 calories of CRAP and 300 or so from the "healthier" stuff I ate to try and stave off the CRAPFEAST. Now I'm not condoning CRAP, but we are human and do get cravings especially this time of year. I'm flying tomorrow and know my "desires" in the air...heehee ok I'm flying 1/2 my trip with my "friend" so that phase just made me chuckle. Anyway I know I'll want something....on the way here I had 1/2 a Giradelli (sp?) peppermint bark bar (seems we both like us some expensive chocolate)...well of course after xmas I found these discounted and bought 4. I also bought a mixed bag of G's so I already plan on taking a couple small ones in my bag...and checking the 4 bars so I don't eat them over the course of the day. Then perhaps a slow weaning will be easier than a cold turkey one. 1 lindt ball a day...so you get a small fix....if you can do that. My new years resolution will be giving up Diet Sunkist, I think this week I need to try a can a day to prepare myself...I freaking know I have a trunk of like 3-4 cases awaiting me in Miami....again we are human. I can tell you in the past 6 years I've had many slips, but what counts is getting back up.

Hi sounds awfully familiar. I am 7 months post op and have never had a problem with sugar which kind of bums me out. I keep testing and pushing and nothing- never dumped. I have been having a tough time this month with the holiday junk around....but i know even with my sampling and nibbles here and there it doesnt even come CLOSE to what I would have been putting away this time last year.

Only suggestion is have you found any protein bars you really like? They really h elp me when i crave chocolate and at least I am getting protein in. My favorite is the Peanutbutter cup Oh Yeah bar....seriously tastes like a twix to me and its soooooo good.

Good luck and I think posting and getting it out there will really help you. No I didnt have this surgery to eat 2 big bites of my sons bday cake tonite- but I am still down 107 pounds and I am still human....I've come a long way and I am not going to beat myself up. Last year I would have had 2 big pieces of cake and icecream too- and Pizza and so on. Tomorrow is a new day!

Rock on!

Jennifer.

You are my husbands' carbsoulmate.  We know this. 

I have given up on 'slapping him around.'  I can't do it, as it only makes him head back to the 'Never Fail Fudge.'  He made another pan the night before last.  Habits don't die, they re-incarnate.

(Disclaimer:  I have my own sugar demons, but not nearly as intense as he does.)

Have you ever done a FULL ON SUGAR DETOX?  Completely shut OFF?  Does the thought of that freak you out?

A complete shut off ?!?!?
I honestly don't know if I can. I say I will tomorrow and I make it no where. I am angry, cranky and seeking out sugar. I also am not good at the hidden stuff. Like I probably should be cutting all bread and pasta ( I don't eat a lot of pasta anyway) won't these things trigger my sugar need? I was on Luna PB bars for a while, eating like 4 a day but that is over. I bought 1 today but haven't had one in a week.
I need rehab.

One Luna bar - 13 grams of sugar.  You spike and crash and need another - it is an addiction.  But what if that bar started causing a more serious reaction and you HAD to stop?

What could you replace it with?

I know, it sounds nuts at first.

I've done the sugar **** detox several times.  The way I do it is with ****pacifying super protein goodies.  Now, these are laden with fat in my versions, so for RNY, you may want to make some lower fat adjustments.  The recipes are on my profile (Ricotta Fluff, SF Custard, Trail Mix and Flourless peanut butter cookies).  I found that if I grab at these instead of sugar for a few days, I'll get over the sugar craving and load up on protein at the same time.  From there, I'm sure to start my days with protein (either custard or fluff) to keep the cravings curbed.