COMPLETELY OFF TOPIC!!!!

So....If you know me....YOU KNOW I am intense.

You either love me or you hate me!  There really is not an in between!

I go full steam, all out, 200 miles per hour.  I want things done, and done right the first time.  I don't care for lazy people and I don't want to settle for second best!  I AM INTENSE!

One of my friends told me I am like the center of the fire...I burn so hot that nothing and no one can stand close to me for very long.  This by the way was said in love and not a put down. 

So anyway for three months I have been short of breath!  with heart palpatations.  One doctor had decided "Heart Attack", I have been through enough cardiac testing to last a lifetime and even now I am in a month long process of a cardiac event monitor!  Lovely little machine.   

Yesterday,  I saw my Primary Care physician...a very handsome young man who probably burns as hot as this little fire because he is very about business.    So while we are talking he's looking over my records and says....Lisa, I DO NOT THINK you are depressed.  You just don't relax.  He say's, I believe there is an underlying anxiety factor at play here.  It sort of shocked me....well, yes, I do go about 20 hours a day and I do feel overwhelmed all the time.  Could this really be anxiety?  Believe it or not I had never even considered for a second that this could be the cause!  Anyway, he put me on Celexa and asked me to give it three weeks, if no improvement then we start all over with the testing.  Guys, I would really love to be able to breathe again, normally.  I am the assistant music minister but for three months I have struggled to breathe and that makes it impossible to sing.  So if you will I am asking for believers to pray with me.  I want this resolved! 

Will you pray?

Blessings,

Lisa

Lisa, you know me and you know I WILL and AM praying.  For 23 years I did what you are doing.  I was BUSY!  B-uried U-nder S-atan's Y-olk.  Doing good for God and others, but not enjoying my life, nor my family.  YOU have to SLOW DOWN.  Take it from one who has had to and still working on it.  God is pleased with what you are doing, but He is also pleased when WE take care of our SELVES!!  YOU know His will.  He is already speaking it to your heart on what you need to do and cut out.  I had to do the same and it broke my heart.  I got SO busy doing good that I couldn't' even hear God speak to me.  I was preparing sermons, doing music, youth, pastor's council, over the food ministry, working in the church office and more things.  I was "doing good", but where was my study time?  Where was my "HEARING" time.  Sure, I read, but was always interupted at the office or home.  We have to have a balance.  SLOW DOWN AND LISTEN!  SLOW DOWN AND ENJOY LIFE!!  

I love ya my friend and I am praying for you!!

Thank you for the prayer and the advice!  It really did shock me a little to hear my PCP say it!  Every friend I have has said the same thing since I told them. 

I am listening close to hear him.  I truly want to be in the CENTER of HIS will.  Not my own!

Thank you,

You're welome my friend!!

Prayers coming your way. 

Kim

Thank you Kim....

This is my third day on the Celexa and I hope it gets better....I don't really care for it so far and the dyspnea is not any better yet....notice i added yet!

Hi Lisa,

I am praying for you!  It will probably be about two weeks before you notice an improvement from the Celexa and then you should notice quite a bit of improvement in four to six weeks.  I will be thinking about you and watching for your updates.

Kim

I truly appreciate the prayers.  My only expectation is breathing!   I just want to feel like I can breathe freely again.  Honestly, It's stressing just feeling that catch in your chest.  I would so love to know that this is all stress related.

Thank you,

Lisa

Lisa,

Praying for you.  I agree with Randall...slow down and take time for you.  You can not do God's will or his work if you fall apart from exhaustion or worse!  Make sure you don't give up on the Celexa...it will take a few weeks and then you will feel great.

I am praying for you...I KNOW how intense you are.  I can be intense also, so I understand.  Keep us informed how you are doing.  We care.

Thank you Connie....I am so going to try and listen to the Lord on this one.  I know I'm over loaded but in this simple human mind I cannot see one area that I can lay down.  It's going to have to be the Lord that leads me.  Thank you for your prayers!

I will keep you updated....

Love,

Lisa