If you missed Dr. Chua on Fox 6, here's the link!

Thanks for the info. Sorry to hear your story.  I can only say keep on keeping on.  I think others are more qualified to offer suggestions, I am just starting this trip.   The thing I sense in your story is one of impending doom and I think you may see it as failure.  While I do not enjoy being overweight, really I am happy with 99.9% of things going on in my life.  Hopefully, you can find the 99.9% because the overweight part is only .1% of who most of use are. 

I wish you well.