Ok! Enough Already!! I Can't Take Anymore!!!

Seriously! I know God only gives me as much as I can handle, but honestly! He's really testing me now! So, I last posted about the whole heart surgery thing that will happen Friday. Today, I went for the annual Gyno appt. My doctor found a mass the size of a softball! Don't know if it's cancerous or not, but he's in a big hurry to take care of it. It wasn't there a year ago, and he's really concerned about it's rapid growth and size. More tests on Monday, and surgery likely to follow soon.  I'm almost to the point that I just wanna go down with a glass of wine in one hand and a pint of Ben and Jerry's in the other!  I surrender!!!

 Lois, from what I have seen you have already done so much more than most are able to do in a lifetime.  You have been strong enough to accomplish more than most have the ambition for.  Losing weight, keeping it off, changing your entire life and then doing what you can to encourage others.  It is awe inspiring.  When I saw you at Dr. Chua's orientation I thought to myself, I wish I could be this woman.  I want to be as successful as you have been and I want to do what you do.  I don't even know if losing the weight will give me that ambition.  

Please stay strong.  You will be in my prayers. I don't know you very well but from what I've seen, you have the strength to get through this.

Psalms 55:22

Thank you so much for the kind words and encouragement. I keep thinking to myself, "Self, it was a lot worse than this before when I was 300 lbs.  It's just a bump in the road."  I have to believe that.  I also believe my strength comes from my parents, my mom beating cancer and my dad escaping death twice.  It must be that good German blood in me that won't let me give up.  It's also good to have a husband that doesn't let me dwell on things and doesn't baby me (unless I ask him to :)   Thanks again for your words. I appreciate all the prayers I can get.

Lois I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through. I will keep you in my prayers! God Bless.

Julie H.

Hi Lois..
   How are you doing? What did they find out? I have you in my thoughts and prayers. Please keep us all posted. You're such a great support person and an inspiration to the WI board. We are all worried about you.

Shari Latawiec
RNY 10/15/07
Dr. Chua