Anxious for surgery, waiting is hard

I feel a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Now the wait begins. I have recently decided to have the surgery whether my insurance (Group Health) pays or not. I'm so excited but now I don't want to wait. I have just started the approval process, my doctor is just now writing my letter. I know my insurance will deny me, and I plan to appeal but now that I've decided to pay myself if I'm denied, I want it done yesterday. I find myself looking at pictures of what I could be in a few months after sugery and hate to wait for insurance. Waiting, knowing I will be having it is so hard. I know 2005 will be my year, I just have to survive the wait. The hospital and surgeon my insurance will make me go to is not who I want to go to, so I can't start the process of consultations, psych evals et****il I know who is paying. If I can have insurance pay, it doesn't matter too much who does it as long as it's laproscopic. I would just prefer Dr. Pennings in Coeur d'Alene Idaho. Any suggestions from post-op people would be greatly appreciated. What should I be doing, knowing I'm having surgery within the next year. I'm right at the borderline with BMI so I need to stay where I'm at.