OMG Is This Real?!?! (Off Scale Victory)
OMG Is This REAL?!?
Monday, April 06, 2009
I've never believed in holding on to clothing in the hopes of "Someday" because for as long as I can remember, SOMEDAY has never come...
SOMEDAY has always been that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow - you can chase it for hours, days, months, or even years - but try as you may - SOMEDAY will always escape your clutches...
Then four years ago, one of my co-workers gave me some clothes for after my surgery... some of it fit - most of it didn't and either went on to other deserving homes or to the Goodwill... EXCEPT for that one coveted item...
I never had a "little black dress" - I mean, come on, let's face it... there has never been anything LITTLE to fit into a little black dress! And any time I went out trying to find a nice dress for any kind of a formal affair or when I wanted to look my best, the items on the rack either laughed at me, scrambled to hide behind the shoe counter, or looked so damned frumpy that I had to laugh at myself for the thought of even THINKING I would be able to find something that I would look good in...
Back to the bag... Within the mass of clothes she gave me was a beautiful, if simple, black dress... Just below the knees, sleeveless with a V neckline - Perfect... BUT it was a too small... So four years ago, I decided that that dress was my first goal - and for about the last 3 years - and with much manipulation of my nooks, crannies, and bulges, I have been able to SQUEEZE into the little black dress that I've had my eye on - BUT I would never think of wearing it beyond my bedroom walls...
This morning, I decided - randomly - that I wanted to give another go at it... I mean why not? Since New Years I've lost 30+ pounds, I'm able to do a lot more physically than I ever dreamed possible (I even managed 60 solid minutes on the elliptical Thursday when 6 weeks ago I'd get off after 5 minutes ready to cry!) And I'm feeling better all around - So why not check my progress on yet another goal of mine, right??
SO... I go into the closet...
.....................Grab the dress...
..............................Look at the size on the tag (and laugh to myself a little)...
........................................
......Remind myself that there's no zipper.... and slip it over my head.......
Next, I turn around to look in the mirror, smooth out the length of the dress, and prepare to adjust and rearrange my parts like I always have with this particular garment... and realize - I DON'T HAVE TO!!!
I've had this dress, this goal, this SOMEDAY, this pot of gold, sitting in my closet for FOUR YEARS - It's gone with me through 6 moves and FINALLY, has become a reality for me!!
And the best part is... It's a size 16!!!
From the coccoon and into the sky - Without making changes I'll never learn to fly!
Anna Patzer
Open RNY 11/14/2005
388/250/150 Goal