Sinking in.....when?

so this is a weird thing for me. It hasn't really sunk in that i'm Losing weight. I've spent so much time and energy in the past with no results.

I think i honestly thought I would get a last min denial. I'm so grateful for this tool. The physical pain and the mental up and downs were worth it.

it still hasn't sunk in yet but I'm really very happy. I think after I reach below 300 it'll hit me. I haven't been under that in over 15 years or more.

For the first time in a very long long time I look forward to each new day. I like waking up in the morning!

Honestly? There are times it still hasn't sunk in for me. And, even now, I find myself doing things like looking at my legs and thinking about how HUGE they are. I definitely still think of myself as the 300+ pound person I started out as, at least half of the time.

But... we'll get there :)

I'll echo Gwen. I still have moments where it hasn't sunk in. Like accidentally saying I weigh 266 instead of 166. Or turning sideways to walk through a tight space when I don't have to anymore. But it's so much better to think fat thoughts like that and be thin than when I thought thin thoughts when I was really fat, if that makes any sense.

Feeling trepidation about walking around the grocery cart when you're in the checkout line?!

When I look in the mirror, sometimes I don't see the size 8 woman who is there, but the size 24 woman who used to be. I'm still struggling with it at 20 months out. It takes time for our minds to catch up with our bodies. I still think of myself as the fat girl. But I'm not anymore. Be kind to yourself.

Wow. What a beautiful thing, I smiled reading all of the posts on here. I'm right there with u. I've been 300 before, I started this journey on tje lower end but we all know Fat is Fat. I wasn't denied the ridicule or humiliation u know. But when I woke up & caught a glimpse of myself in my t strap shirt & panties, well I just had to stop & think- Damn girl you sexy!

I hope one day we can lose the fat shadow & mental image. They will come out with a book or something. Blessings

It's hard for me to see myself as other people see me now. I am still horribly overweight in my mind, and when I step on the scale I constantly mess up that first number. Even after a year, wrapping my head around how far I've come and how much I've changed is difficult. Not just by weight, but in personality as well. I've become a better, happier person.

I was thinking the same thing last night! I have gone from 273 to 166 in 9 months. Now I can squeeze into small spaces and look good with my shirt tucked in. Before I needed a seat belt extender on airplanes, and now I have several inches of extra belt. Men look at me differently.But I still see the fat girl when I look in a mirror.

Sometimes when I look at myself in the mirror I still think I look overweight. The mind seems to fill in what is suddenly missing. So when I feel like that I take a selfie ( which I usually delete) and in the photo I can see how thin I really am. I don't know why this works, but it does.

There are many days it still hasn't sunk in for me.

I pull pants out of my closet 10 sizes smaller than I used to wear (or does it only count for 5... 24 to 14?? Womens sizes are so confusing!!) and look at them thinking "there is no way these will go over ONE THIGH!!" and then when I pull them on, they're loose.

Or I go to sit down in an auditorium and think "OMG I'm going to have to squeeze into this seat" and then I plop in with room to spare.

It's not so much that I don't see myself as thinner in the mirror. I'm actually quite happy with how I look now and while I still sometimes focus on the remaining rolls and lumps, I still see that they're TONS smaller than they were. It's all the other interactions in society that I'd learned to cringe before, that the tapes still play in my head and I'm surprised when what I'm expecting doesn't happen.

VSG is hands-down the best thing I've done for my health, in pretty much EVER.