Whatcha Eating Today VSGers? Wednesday 8/30/17

I'm in the orchestra for the show "Gypsy" at a local theatre.

Fun!

Had a better food day yesterday. Ended going over on peanut butter. Better than Double Chocolate Chip Gelato...

QOTD: Having gone through loss twice now, I appreciate comfortably sitting in seats, not feeling like people are staring at me... I guess not feeling as self-conscious. If people stare now, I don't care. I feel good.

AM: COFFEE with fairlife

S: Yogurt

L: Roast beef wrapped Mozz

S: HB Egg

S: VanPP w/espresso

D: Chicken Breast, Cottage cheese, Avacado, Hummus

Water & Vites

E: Elliptical, Abs

45? BRRRR.

I roasted a lot of beef last night, so I'm looking forward to a delicious lunch (and maybe dinner too) of leftover roast beef. I'm also happy that today is a sunny day, it rained all day yesterday and that was gross. I finally braved the scale today after my last week of Bad Times, and it was actually okay. So I'm glad about that.

QOTD: One of my primary goals with losing weight was that I didn't want my weight to prevent me from doing the things I wanted to do, as it had done for all of my memorable life. (I actually didn't go on a tour with my family at Mesa Verde when I was in middle school, I sat in the car and sulked, because I didn't want to admit that I was afraid I'd get stuck in the tunnel due to being fat. In middle school. I probably weighed all of 150 and I still felt like I couldn't exist in normal body spaces. UGH.) So my favorite thing about WLS is that my weight no longer dictates my choices, actions, and abilities.

1: protein shake
2: roast beef and horseradish sauce
3: more roast beef and horseradish sauce

liquid and vites: on track
exercise: nope - I have started investigating plans and ideas for focusing on upper body once I'm cleared for exercise again.

I feel like our WLS allows us to appreciate ourselves at what we consider less than perfect. I remember being shy about physical activity and being ridiculed about that in high school. I was probably 170-175lbs at the time. I should have been really comfortable with myself, I was a size 10/12 for cripes sake - totally average!

Now, I have appreciated each rung of the ladder on the way down and I'm so much more content with my body and how it can be awesome without being perfect.

So true. :/ Sometimes it is depressing to think of how much brain time I've spent on feeling.. inadequate due to my body. This is WLS's biggest gift to me. No longer renting my brain to those feelings.

This is incredibly true. I remember being a size 13 in Jr & High school. I was a cheerleader in Jr High. The players used to make fun of me being fat, but I was the most athletic cheerleader. I did jumps and splits and things that none of the other girls would do. My senior pix, I felt so fat. Size 13. Ridiculous!

The strangest thing has happened in my brain. At 3-5 months after VSG I felt on top of the world, small and healthy and beautiful. I had more confidence in every aspect of my life. Now in my 6th month I'm feeling huge, and am all of the sudden just as mean to myself as when I was obese. I think it's because my inner self hating voice was silenced by rapid weight loss and is now back as strong as ever since my weight loss has significantly slowed. I have plenty of head work to do.

B: black coffee, vits

L: quest bar

Dinner: salmon burger patty

S: full fat yogurt + sugar free preserves, maybe a second quest bar

I'm sure much of it can be attributed to your scale mix up. Remember, just because the number is different doesn't mean you haven't been putting in the work!

I agree with Erin! I'm sure your scale mix up is screwing with your brain here.

Are you seeing a therapist? I know that, for me, seeing one has really helped me to conquer some of my really self-defeating thought patterns. It might be beneficial for you as well!