Whatcha Eating Today VSGers? Saturday 8/26/17

Morning, VSGers! I have to work all day today. The freshman moved in yesterday, and today the rest of campus moves in. We have our last Airbnb guest here for awhile and a family friend is moving in either today or tomorrow to be our long term tenant.

Last night we went to see my father where he was camping. He told me I was too skinny, making comments like "It wouldn't hurt you to gain 20lbs though would it? That amount of weight wouldn't affect your diabetes or anything." and "Stop by McDonald's on the way home, you could use a cheeseburger." and "I think you better start adding Ben & Jerry's." and "Well, I hope you don't let it turn into an eating disorder". He had been drinking and therefore was more freely expressing his concern (because that's how he does it, it's just how he is). I just don't get how people think that being skinny is something to comment on when they would have never said anything about me being fat.

It's funny because he has a friend who also had VSG and he was there camping with him (but not around while I was there) and he commented that his friend had eaten 2 TBSP of baked and he was amazed by how that made him full and he didn't need anymore. Somehow though, he can't comprehend that it's still mostly like that for me. I think he thinks I'm "done". His friend was around 450lbs to start and is only about 3-4 months post op, so he has a long way to go.

QOTD: I asked this of another OH member recently, but I thought it would be interesting to see other's thoughts. Has your perception of other people's weight changed since you have had WLS? I'm now unable to tell if people have lost/gained weight or if the way I see them is different now. Where I used to look at a size 12 woman and then omg I'd kill to be that size now I just see them as average. I also look around and notice that there are many women who are very comfortable in their skin at a size that I felt so bad about myself.

7 months post-op\Maintenance\140.1lbs this morning

M1: Premier Protein w/ Coffee, Miralax, and HC

M2: Fage Total Classic, SF Pudding Mix, Blueberries, and Sunflower Seeds

M3: Grilled Chicken Breast and Avocado, 2 TBSP plain Greek yogurt for dipping

M4: TBD, I haven't taken anything out of the freezer yet, so I might need to stop and grab a protein

E: Not today, unless we get in a hike when I get home or something.

I think I do notice other people's comfort with themselves more now. Most of my friends are on the larger side and now it sometimes feels like there is some unspoken thing going on because I've lost so much weight. They do talk about my size which makes me very uncomfortable not least because I don't want to talk about anyone's weight and when they tell me I look very skinny it's not like I can comment on their weight in return.

I used to really envy size 12 women too. My team originally set a goal of 12 stone, then 11 before I revised it down to 10. Last year when I was a size 26/24 I dreamed about being a 14 and couldn't quite believe I'd ever be a 12. Now I sometimes even fit in a 10 and I still feel very average and right now definitely on the chunky side! I might not be able to tell if others have lost or gained weight but I'm very conflicted about what I see when I look at myself in the mirror.

QOTD: My perception has changed. I finally see myself as a smaller person, but it took so long to see it. I also look at other people and am considerably less envious than I used to be. I notice me looking at myself as I walk up to glass doors, and thinking I look like a normal person now and nobody pays any attention to me. Unlike before when I was a spectacle wherever I went.

I had to get dressed up for the funeral yesterday, and for the first time in 25+ years, I actually FELT like I looked nice! It was an awesome feeling. And one of my cousins said I had to choose which new name she was going to call me from now on..."Bones" or "Slim" lol I chose Slim because I'm still a long way from bones hahaha.

B: Dannon L&F 80 yogurt w/Fiber One, coffee w/heavy cream and xylitol

L: Beef sausage snack sticks and Swirls cheese sticks, fresh zucchini sticks

D: Smoked pulled pork, sour cream, salsa verde, and fresh zucchini sticks

Water and vites on track

E: The dreaded "H" word!

I cleaned half my kitchen counters, my stovetop and packed away my big dishes and what's left of my old pots and pans today.

You and Cathy crack me up!

You GOTTA LOVE Freddie!!!!

Amen, sistah!

LOL Thanks, Cecily!