Want to make myself throw up. 6 yrs out
It sounds like its time to start weighing and recording your food again to get back on track. You should have lots of restriction and you know how to do it! You've got this.
Carol
Surgery May 1, 2013. Starting Weight 385, Surgery Weight 333, Current Weight 160. At GOAL!
Weight loss Pre-op 1-20 2-17 3-15 Post-op 1-20 2-18 3-15 4-14 5-16 6-11 7-12 8-8
9-11 10-7 11-7 12-7 13-8 14-6 15-3 16-7 17-3 18-3
Yeah I just want to back up what the others are saying. You say you want to do it again like you have a compulsion to do it. That is the start of an eating disorder. Please seek help. Eating disorders can be common after WLS. I wish the best of luck in your struggles.
It's very easy to slip from one eating disorder into another - they're just opposite sides of the same coin. At 320 lbs. you probably engaged in compulsive overeating or binge-eating. Now you're looking at trading compulsive eating for bulimia. It doesn't sound like you've ever fully addressed the underlying issues that cause you to use food as a coping tool.
Please get yourself to a therapist who specializes in eating disorders. And look into Overeater's Anonymous. It's a free 12-step program for anybody with disordered eating, whether it be anorexia, bulimia or compulsive eating.
Good luck