Today is the day!
Well, actually tomorrow... but I leave today and have surgery first thing in the morning. My feelings about this are odd this past week. I feel so detached. I am not excited, nervous, or scared. I am almost apathetic about it.
When I went in October for revision to sleeve I was so excited, nervous, scared, happy, positive for the future, etc... Had bought all my supplements and protein powders, done all my research, made all my plans, and was prepared. Then he could not perform the revision due to all the scar tissue and adhesions from my LapBand. I was so disappointed I cried about it several times. Heading into surgery this time I just feel blah about it, I just want to get it done and over with so I can get on with the show. I must be in some sort of psychological protective mode, lol. Pre-op has been easy for me and I lost 5 lbs in 9 days (10 day pre-op diet). I just wish I was more excited. Maybe it will come when I actually have the surgery. I was successful with the CrapBand, so I know that I will be successful with this... but the Sleeve will be a permanent tool! Okay, I just felt some excitement : )
Say a quick prayer, or send happy thoughts, for me in the morning!
Lianna lapband 2005, removed 2014. VSG 3/9/15
Good luck tomorrow. Know that bunches of happy thoughts and prayer are being sent your way. I can relate to the not so psyched up. I am just ready for mine to happen on Wednesday. Three days from today for me. Yes it is a permanent surgery but a lifestyle change needs to be a permanent mindset also. I know you will do fine. Blessings your way
