I'm terrified of getting fat again! & PICS from NYC / Daily Show
I just had a great weekend with my mom, sister, and brother-in-law in NYC. We had a blast. We saw Jon Stewart live. My mom bought me a new dress - see below. The dress got a lot of attention on the street. I'm not used to men proposing marriage (that's NYC for you). We ate good food - really good food. I did ok with the food. But it really scares me. The sleeve is helpful, it is a great tool, but I could easily overdo it.
So from this weekend, I realized a) I do not see myself as I am (a tall thin attractive woman) and b) I'm terrified of gaining weight. I'm trying to avoid doing any sort of cleansing, but just going back to the normal non-NYC way of eating. This will be a bit tricky as I'm on a train to PA now for a work trip blah. I wish I could be home and have complete control over all food ingredients. My food is delicious and healthy.
Me at the Daily Show w/ Jon Stewart
new dress my mom bought me - size large - designer - Desigual.
VSG: 12/12/13, LBL, small TL, BL/BA: 11/7/14 Twins 12/9/18 HW after Twins 260. 5'10 37 years old - Stacy_WLS (MFP)
You look so pretty!!! And I'm so jealous you saw Jon Stewart! Love him!
I hear you on your fears. I'm not as far out as you but am starting to have the same fears on a more realistic level. I've always been afraid of gaining it all back, or it not working, but now it's more knowing that I'm STILL battling, and will have to continue battling, my desires over my needs...and it's a tough fight. You're doing so great! You can make this happen for the long haul, just keep your mind in the game.
Tricia 
M1 -26, M2 -14, M3 -14, M4 -12, M5 -12, M6 -11, M7 -10, M8 -12, M9 -5, Goal Reached 9 months and 14 days
Just wanted to say you look incredible in that dress! OMG! Fantastic. What a great feeling that must be.
Yeah, and a >tad< envious abour your seeing Jon Stewart too! Sounds like it was a lovely trip, despite the fears.
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Wow! Did you ever think you would be able to wear a dress like that?? Colorful and fitted and it looks perfect!
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WOW you look amazing! I wish you could see yourself as we see you - definitely can see why you got proposals! Isn't Jon so funny - and so short? I saw him live and was shocked at his small stature. I also hear you on a. massive fear of weight gain (and i am not even close to goal but already worried about it) and b. just got back from 2 weeks work trip where I wished I had my kitchen scale and the knowledge of the exact ingredients. So you're not alone! Looks like you are doing a great job so just keep on being vigilant :)
Thank you so much everyone!!! :)
Jon Stewart was great, but OMG we waited so long to get in. We were in line from 1- almost 3 for the tickets, then got back in line at 4:15, and the show didn't start until 6:30. Honestly it was funny, but it wasn't worth all of that time waiting. My brother-in-law disagrees - he is such a fan he would have waited ALL day. It was a cool experience though :)
I think it will take time for me to see myself as I am. And it will take practice for me not to stress out about a few bad / less healthy meals. I'm looking forward to a nice long run tonight :)
VSG: 12/12/13, LBL, small TL, BL/BA: 11/7/14 Twins 12/9/18 HW after Twins 260. 5'10 37 years old - Stacy_WLS (MFP)
