GOAL is on the horizon... and musings on depression.
Thanks, Mo :)
VSG 7/1/13 with Dr. Jack Rutledge 28 y/o female - 5'10" - HW: 298 - GW: 174 - SW: 290 (-8) - M1: 262 (-28) - M2: 247 (-15) - M3: 235 (-12) - M4: 228 (-7 ~First Stall: almost 2 wks~) - M5: 218 (-10) - M6: 209 (-9) - M7: 199 (-10) Onederland on 1/31 - M8: 196 (-3) 100 lb total loss on 2/2 - M9: 192.6 (-3.4) - M10: 188.6 (-4) - M11: 182 (-6.6) - M12: 175.6 (-6.4) - M13: 173.8 (-1.8) CW (7/8/15): 167 - GOAL reached in 1 Year and 25 Days! - TOTAL WL - 131 lbs
You are doing an awesome job! I get that sad feedback cycle believe me. For the past 18 years I have been there too! It is encouraging to hear and SEE your success. I am so excited for you to get a job doing something that you love. Doing something that you love makes a huge difference. It helps you to feel like you have a purpose which is satisfying. I am happy for you. You will be to your goal before you know it!
Thanks a bunch :) I feel a sense of peace knowing that I'm about to start a job that makes me happy, rather than one that I'm just "good at." Sadly the two things don't always coincide, but now they do!
VSG 7/1/13 with Dr. Jack Rutledge 28 y/o female - 5'10" - HW: 298 - GW: 174 - SW: 290 (-8) - M1: 262 (-28) - M2: 247 (-15) - M3: 235 (-12) - M4: 228 (-7 ~First Stall: almost 2 wks~) - M5: 218 (-10) - M6: 209 (-9) - M7: 199 (-10) Onederland on 1/31 - M8: 196 (-3) 100 lb total loss on 2/2 - M9: 192.6 (-3.4) - M10: 188.6 (-4) - M11: 182 (-6.6) - M12: 175.6 (-6.4) - M13: 173.8 (-1.8) CW (7/8/15): 167 - GOAL reached in 1 Year and 25 Days! - TOTAL WL - 131 lbs
Chrissy, I sure do know those loops, and you've done a great job of articulating how they work. Kudos to you for your success and for your mental/emotional strength! It's great to see you following your dream, and I promise that if I'm ever in Chattanooga I'm going to come to your restaurant and say hi. 
Surgery: RNY on 12/18/2013 with Jay M. Snow, MD "Don't mistake my kindness for weakness." - Robert Herjavec, quoting Al Capone
Thanks, Pam :) DEFINITELY stop by if you're ever in the area!!
VSG 7/1/13 with Dr. Jack Rutledge 28 y/o female - 5'10" - HW: 298 - GW: 174 - SW: 290 (-8) - M1: 262 (-28) - M2: 247 (-15) - M3: 235 (-12) - M4: 228 (-7 ~First Stall: almost 2 wks~) - M5: 218 (-10) - M6: 209 (-9) - M7: 199 (-10) Onederland on 1/31 - M8: 196 (-3) 100 lb total loss on 2/2 - M9: 192.6 (-3.4) - M10: 188.6 (-4) - M11: 182 (-6.6) - M12: 175.6 (-6.4) - M13: 173.8 (-1.8) CW (7/8/15): 167 - GOAL reached in 1 Year and 25 Days! - TOTAL WL - 131 lbs
Thanks a bunch :)
VSG 7/1/13 with Dr. Jack Rutledge 28 y/o female - 5'10" - HW: 298 - GW: 174 - SW: 290 (-8) - M1: 262 (-28) - M2: 247 (-15) - M3: 235 (-12) - M4: 228 (-7 ~First Stall: almost 2 wks~) - M5: 218 (-10) - M6: 209 (-9) - M7: 199 (-10) Onederland on 1/31 - M8: 196 (-3) 100 lb total loss on 2/2 - M9: 192.6 (-3.4) - M10: 188.6 (-4) - M11: 182 (-6.6) - M12: 175.6 (-6.4) - M13: 173.8 (-1.8) CW (7/8/15): 167 - GOAL reached in 1 Year and 25 Days! - TOTAL WL - 131 lbs
I was in a situation where I couldn't work a job I loved due to an injury and all I did was sit on the couch all day eating and drinking. I gained so much weight that I couldn't imagine going in public and was fearful of being able to walk through a store. It was SUCH a depressing spiral, like you said. I was thinking how great it feels now. I've lost 80 pounds since then and feel like I've gone from obscenely obese to just obese. It is a feeling that I am allowed to live in the world and walk wherever I need to!
you post just made me think about crawling out of the depression spiral.
37 y/o female 5'8" HW 355 consult 329 SW (3/7/2014)301 CW 168 goal 170
M1- 26 M2- 14 M3- 15 M4 -13 M5 -16 M6-12 M7-2 M8-5 M9-6 M10-8 M11-1 M12-5 M13-10 Goal reached 4/5/15 total lost 187 lbs total; 133 in the 13 months since surgery
"It is a feeling that I am allowed to live in the world..."
YES!! Isn't it a strange feeling to suddenly feel like you have permission to live your life how you want to? Like, as an obese individual, you were supposed to shrink away and not crowd people. That was your place in the world: "Stay out of the spotlight." And now it's like, "Move over, *****es! I've got stuff to DO!"
VSG 7/1/13 with Dr. Jack Rutledge 28 y/o female - 5'10" - HW: 298 - GW: 174 - SW: 290 (-8) - M1: 262 (-28) - M2: 247 (-15) - M3: 235 (-12) - M4: 228 (-7 ~First Stall: almost 2 wks~) - M5: 218 (-10) - M6: 209 (-9) - M7: 199 (-10) Onederland on 1/31 - M8: 196 (-3) 100 lb total loss on 2/2 - M9: 192.6 (-3.4) - M10: 188.6 (-4) - M11: 182 (-6.6) - M12: 175.6 (-6.4) - M13: 173.8 (-1.8) CW (7/8/15): 167 - GOAL reached in 1 Year and 25 Days! - TOTAL WL - 131 lbs
