Binge food and a bit of an NSV - mental shift

A few months ago, a sign went up that a Taco Shack was opening just a few blocks from me. I'm pretty sure I gasped. Taco Shack's breakfast tacos were my binge food of choice when we lived near one before. I remember, any time I was alone in the mornings, I would stop by there, grab either two or three very large burritos or six or seven tacos for breakfast and snarf them down. Literally.

I've been looking at it with trepidation, waiting for it to open. Every time I've passed by there, I'd get a little pressure in my chest - maybe excitement that my favorite food was coming soon or maybe fear that it was, I'm not sure which - probably a little bit of both.

It's still not open, but I'm kind of glad it's taking them a while. It's taken me a few months to realize that it's okay. When it opens, I don't HAVE to go there. I don't HAVE to eat six tacos. I've spent entirely too much time thinking about this (LOL, seriously!), but it's taken me a while to realize that I'm different now. Baring that place, I had other favorite binge foods and I'm not binging on them now. The Shack doesn't have to be any different.

So, I'll be okay. Just in the past week, I've passed by and not had that feeling of dread/excitement. Yes, I still adore breakfast tacos - I eat the inside now. I do look forward to maintenance and having one with some tortilla once in a while, but it doesn't mean that I have to stuff myself full of taco goodness. LOL.

I dunno what I'm going for here... just a realization that I'm a different person now that doesn't abuse food like I use to. Yes, I plan on going there for our Sunday morning tacos when it opens, but I have control now.

Control. That's an interesting word, isn't it? Me having control... well, that's priceless.

News Flash!!!!!  You will not be able to stuff yourself on breakfast tacos no matter how hard you try!!!

You are different now in many positive ways.  If your mind fails you, your body will punish you.  I can eat the insides of two tacos max and I am way way out.  My fav are shrimp tacos.  I call them my beach burgers.

The beauty of this surgery is that you can still eat well and eat the foods you enjoy as long as it's not cake and ice cream.

Darn you, now you got me hungry for a shrimp taco!!!

Oh, I dunno, it might take me six or seven hours, but I bet I could stuff them down if I really put my mind to it. I think the bigger part is that I don't WANT to, ya know? LOL

Oh man... we have a local chain here called Torchy's. I LOVE going there. The insides of a taco are so easy as long as I watch the sauces.

Ya gotta learn to eat faster....6 or 7 hrs is even too much for me to devote to eating!

Not wanting to is more than half the battle.  You are a dainty eater now.  The first step to being a skinny *****  Pretty soon people are going to start hating on you.....

Unfortunately, I already see part of that in friends and family. I just don't talk about it as much because it doesn't matter and that's their issue, not mine. I cannot control their thoughts, only my own. It's also a way to deflect their own problems and that's okay too. One day I'll fully claim my skinny ***** title. LOL!

Yeah, it's weird, I used to obsess about food and what to eat and when. Half the time, I forget lunch these days and end up eating around 2. Weird at times to realize "oh, crap, I didn't eat yet". I keep waiting for the hunger to return, but so far... I'm lucky, still great restriction and extremely rare hunger.

I wonder why some people don't get hungry.  I never lost hunger although for a while I didn't get the same bang out of food.

I would love to forget to eat.  Even if your hunger does return, it is still very doable.

Yeah, everyone tells me it will come back. If it doesn't... good riddance, but I can handle it now. :)

Mmm, I love their diablo sauce

Oh, diablo sauce is the debil! :)

Good for you Candy!  you got this!