So, somtimes this whole thing sucks (downer post)
I won't reha**** all here, go read my blog on my profile here, but I'm having a craptastic month. Just wanted to say hello, I'm still alive, just not in a good place right now. I'm not gaining weight, so that's a good thing, but overall, just in a funk and I could use a hug or two. *laughing*
Anyway, just saying "hello" and "I'm still here". I read here daily and sometimes respond, I'm just kind of in a weird spot. Working my way out of it though. Slowly.
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5'6" / HW 375 / SW 355 / CW 150 / Maintaining 155-159 - Goal Reached! 225 Pounds Lost
Your experience with this and your posts made me feel so much better about having this surgery, especially since we have the same surgeon. I haven't been exactly where you are, but I totally know how you feel and I am sending you a huge virtual hug. It sucks feeling that way, but it's awesome that you recognize it and are seeking help (meds, grocery shopping, etc). Sometimes it's OK to have a pity party, to wallow a bit, then you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep on trucking. I'm completely sure you already know that, but I just wanted to let you know that I think you're inspiring.
Consider yourself cyber-hugged!
You know that everything comes and goes in cycles. There have been times when you've been firmly on program, feeling good about it all, and feeling invincible. Then there are the other times! The trick is to hold on until the cycle ends and try to keep your sanity in the process. Hope you crawl out of this cycle sooner versus later!
Yes, it really does suck, sometimes! I think we all enter the wls thinking we will live happily ever after, and it just isn't so. I know I brought myself along on the journey and that was a big mistake if I wanted the bluebird of happiness to do anything but crap on everything. On the other hand, you and I are in a much better place than before. I have been where you are and I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You will get there but it will take time. Don't be impatient with yourself, this is not something you have control over. It is a chemical imbalance and you didn't cause it nor can you stop it without help. Just keep on keeping on for a time. Your idea of asking for an increase in your meds is probably valid so see what happens. You are not a downer. You are in pain and it is good that you are expressing it. Don't be shy, we don't judge.
Once again I wish I could make it all better but I can only offer prayers and hugs. Multiple hugs. Lots of them. Sue