Deja Vu and Curious about You Guys

I was an athletic pre-teen and teen. I had a small bout (7th grade) of being overweight, but I lost it all that summer at camp.

I wasn't fat in high school either, but I thought I was. I look back at those pictures and laugh at myself for being embarassed of my weight - I was 5'3" and 140 lbs. I played volleyball through highschool and college and I pretty much stayed at that weight all the way through.

I worked at an ice cream store (like a crack addict making crack) and gained 10 lbs. I remember I had to move the button on my uniform and was horrified. I lost all that weight too.

In college, I LOST 15 lbs my freshmen year.

Throughout those years I always had the fat mindset and the addictive eating. I ate like crap, but I was lucky because I was able to burn it off most of the time.

My senior year in college I started having this nasty pain on my right side. Saw a doc who said needed to lose 10-20 lbs (I was 145 at the time) and told me to eat more fiber. Mmmmm...I like fiber. I ate more fiber. I graduated at 22 and by the time I was 25 I was 185 lbs. I know this because I was preparing to get married and we were looking into life insurance policies. The nice lady came to my work and weighed me in a quiet office. It sucked to see that number.

Meanwhile, the pain in my side had become almost unbearable. I finally had insurance and saw another surgeon who said it was my gallbladder. Hooray! Finally an answer. I had surgery 1 month before my wedding.

The damage was done. I was in full "eat like crap" mode.

I picked 135 because I was always comfortable between 140-145. I have no desire to wear size 0 anything. I want to be athletic and healthy again - and healthy for me is being very active.

I know right now, I am the smallest I have ever been - certainly as an adult and teenager. I know when I was 14/15, I was already 250 lbs. I dont have any recollections of being weighed prior to that, but I know I was already shopping in the larger sizes of Lane Bryant in middle school.  (thank g-d I have already divorced LB !!!)

So, at any point where I weighed 210 lbs- I was short and stubby. But I am also much fitter right now at 210 lbs than I would have been as a kid gaining weight, so that makes a difference too.

Anything below my current weight is icing on the cake, but I am pretty excited to see what my body can do/look like. I have no idea if I'll ever hit a goal weight, but if I do, i'm sure I'll look great.

Hijack!!

OMG, you got to half your original weight and I missed it. I'm sorry!!

Way to go! You rock.

I went to a catholic grade school and had to wear navy/gold plaid jumper uniforms. By the time I hit 5th grade, I had outgrown all the jumpers...they didn't make them any bigger--I don't remember the size. I do remember the school allowing me to wear navy shorts with my white collared shirt and the shorts were a size 16...that was 5th grade size 16. Whether it was an ADULT size 16 or not, I dont know...or if there is even a difference--but it was a FREAKING 16!! I now wear a 9/10 and I'm 26 years old...this is the smallest I have been in...maybe ever???

That is such an interesting thought.....go down to a weight you can't relate to.  I have set my goal with VSG same as it was with my band, which is 150.  That puts me at a still overweight range but achievable, for sure. 

I nearly got to my goal with the band (got down to 153), but then things went to hell in a handbasket.  I really don't want to relate to that time in my life.  Hmmmmm   thinking now I should even change my ticker to reflect a new goal.  Maybe 140? 

Two weeks ago I hit 129.4. My goal was 145 but I wanted a cushion for regain. I also wanted to see where the sleeve would take me if I did not stop the loss myself.

I have no memory of weight before freshman yr of college. I was about 131 then. I remember my old Dr calling me fat all the time because I was bottom heavy and had more baby fat. I am thinner now,more lean than I was at this weight before. In 1990 I wore a size 9-12 jean. Now I wear a 2 or 4!

I had some pms related gain so I'm back at 132 but being in the 120's is mentally unreal to me.

I weigh 155 and never remember weighing any less. 

The only memory I have is being 160 or so when I was 11 and went on a diet.

I must have been 10 yrs old or so when I weighed what I weigh now!

 Well I wasn't fat as a kid.  But I thought I was.  I weighed around 140 and 5'5" but with 2 obese parents I always saw myself as the fat kid.  I rode horses all my life and was pretty active.  When I left home and started training horses for a living I went down to 125-130, but still only a size 8.  When I joined the Army I had to drop weight from 160 down to 150 to get it.  I left basic training at 125 but quickly went back to 150 for the remainder of my Army time.  I had a very tramatic pregnancy with my son in 2003 and ballooned up to 195.  I lost down to 170 in 2004 but then steadily put on weight and was at 230 when I got pregnant with my 2nd in 2008.  I weighed 219 when she was born.  I then continued to put on weight till at my highest of 270 when I started this prosess in Sep.

For me I'll be happy in the 130-140 range.  I know it's maintainable, as I've done it, and I know I look decent.  But my therapist thinks I'm being unreasonable and should look to maintain around 150.  We'll see when I get there.