Deja Vu and Curious about You Guys

I weigh 184 pounds today.  I'm wearing 14 pants and an XL shirt.  This is one of "those" weights that has a lot of meaning for me.

First, I remember very clearly weighing 185 when I was 13.  We were weighed in school, and it was so embarrassing.  I was the heaviest girl in my class.  I was the same height as I am now, so pretty much the same size.  I felt so fat and out-of-place at the time (I wouldn't feel that way today, I'm sure), but when I looked back at pictures of me, I looked great - especially in comparison to how I ended up.

I gained tons of weight in high school and was 254 lb when I graduated.  Then, up to 287 lb before starting OA when I was 26.  When I lost back down to 185, it was a big deal because it was 100 pounds lost, and I felt like I'd gone back in time and rescued that 13-yr-old girl I used to be.

I remember back then (in my 20s) being very satisfied at this weight.  I quit weighing every day, and was shocked to find that I continued to lose weight - I had weirdly connected "weighing every day" to "losing weight."  But that's another post.

Eventually, I stopped at 165, a which is a weight I had never seen since 12 years old.  I hung out there for about a week-and-a-half and stablized at 170-175 for several years.

I've made my goal this time 160, mostly because I don't remember who that person was that weighed 160 lb.  I don't know what she was doing, or how she felt, or what was so difficult for her at that size that she needed to be bigger.  I know we can all speculate about these things, but something very visceral happens when I am actually *the same weight* as I was at some period of my life.

I am nervous I won't make goal.  Not so much because I will go off plan, but that it is a lot to ask a body to go back to a point where it hasn't been in 40 years.  I am willing to follow this food plan for the long-term and see where it takes me, but I don't want to feel like a failure if I can't get to 160 lb. 

I am curious - any of you out there lost back to a weight you haven't seen since your preteen years?

 

Yep. I'm estimating I weigh what I weighed in about 3rd or 4th grade. Seriously, I was that heavy.

A story: when I was in 6th grade (which was highest grade of elementary school in that day in that place) they lined us up down the "upper grade" hallway to a big, heavy white doctor's office scale and weighed us in front of our peers. If we were overweight, the teachers made comments, again in front of our peers.

I weighed 223 lbs, and never lost any of it. The lowest I've been in my adult life was around 245 lbs and that for maybe 15 minutes.

I weigh 72 pounds less now than I weighed in 6th grade. My height started to level off at the end of 5th grade, so without any records I'm guessing it was 3rd or 4th grade the last time I weighed 151 lbs.

Thank you!  Maybe it *is* possible!  I'm just going to keep plugging!!  So inspiring.

I am not quite at the weight I was pre-teen.  I remember being 136 at 11, but I was already my adult height.  My parents were concerned, the doc said it was baby fat, so they stopped nagging, and I was 166 by 12.  Sounds like so much for a 5'4-1/2" 12 year old, but I looked pretty good - I was fully matured, having started puberty very young (bra at 8 and period by 10).  The years between 12 and 18 are fuzzy, but I know I was 203 at hs graduation - 16 lbs. more than now.  I lost 50+ lbs that summer, down to below 150 for a very short time.  I managed to stay under 200 through college, yo-yoing after that until I got to 323 at 49.  

My goal is also somewhere around 160.  My ticker says 180, as that was the NUT's original goal.  Once I reach that goal, I'll adjust it again.  It has been so long since I weighted anywhere near that amount, I really don't know what to expect.  My body may decide to stop before then, or get there.  I too am willing to follow this plan for life.  I am too healthy, have a freer life, and feel like I've been given a second chance at life that I never thought I'd get.  Those things are too precious to me to do anything but stay on course.

Yay for you and yay for us!  We have been given such a blessing.  I am grateful every day I wake up for feeling 100 times better.

I am at a smaller size than I can remember being in my adult life.
I think I was a size 14 in high school.  I thought I was so huge, but looking at pictures, I looked fine!  

In college, I lost some weight (I took black beauties!  omg, can't believe I was so stupid ... I was just so desparate to get thin ...) and got to a size 12.  That's the smallest I can remember being as an adult.  (I was a thin kid, got heavy after I had kids.)

The really weird thing is I weigh more now.  When I hit size 12 back then, I think I got down to 140 lbs.   I am a size 8-10 now, but weighed 169 this morning.  That doesn't make any sense to me!    

This is such an interesting journey that we're taking.   I'm finding it a time of great personal growth, but it's painful at times dealing with some of the emotions it brings up.  Mostly it's been great fun and so very rewarding! 

 

 It's because in the 80's they deregulated clothing sizes.  I was a 14 in HS but I know I only weighed around 140.  At 140 now I'd be in an 8!  A friend of mine (that I sew for) wanted some vitage clothes made out of vintage patterns,  She bought some in her size of 6 and I said nope for back in teh 50's your going to be a 10 or a 12.  She didn't believe me, so we measured and I was right!

hrford, that makes sense, then!   I didn't get how I can be 30 lbs more now, and in a smaller size.

Ditto that!  My smallest size at 165 lb was a 12 (1987), and that was in an A-line dress.  In pants, I never got below a 14. 

As a frequent Goodwill shopper, I have to be careful - the older the style, the smaller it will fit!!