8 months out and the scale is moving again!

You know, I really am a compulsive overeater.  I just have a tiny tummy.  I had to jetison the Fiber Gummies and the PB2 (well, the portion I didn't mix into the rest of my protein).  I have proven to myself numerous times since surgery that I still have trigger foods, sometimes brand new ones. 

Many successful vets talk about a lifestyle change.  It is - that's certainly true.  We can't keep living the lives we had before surgery if we want a different outcome. 

But as someone who has struggled with this issue for most of my life, my thinking is the core problem and it isn't "cured" by surgery and I still have these default grooves in my thinking around food and eating that I will drift into without vigilence.  Sometimes I drift there with vigilence, and I have to hit the reset button and get back on track.

I'm afraid this is how it will be for me for the long term.  That's not so bad - at least I know what I'm up against.   That's why it's important for me to continue to read and post here, to remind myself I'm not cured, I have a major malfunction in my thinking around food, and my instincts in this area aren't reliable. 

I have also got to get comfortable with doing this imperfectly, and not giving up.  That's one of the main strategies the monkey uses to get me to eat again - "See, you can't do it, you might as well eat what you want!" 

I'm not done losing weight, and I'm not "done" with seeing food sometimes get the better of me.  I also can't be done with getting rid of what isn't working, getting back to basics, clearing my head, and relying on the advice of others when my own thinking has become especially unreliable.

I'll update my ticker when I'm sure it's "sticking."  Love you guys!!

I like you and your attitude so much, Happy! I am one of those people, too, who has all kinds of mental demons around food. I HATE them but like the old saying goes, Keep your friends closer and your enemies closer. It's really the only way for me to stay on top of things.

Congrats on the scale moving again! Don't let that deranged, stinky monkey on your back win... YOU'RE GOING TO WIN THIS TIME!

Wouldn't it be cool if you could get the monkey to wear a cute hat and jacket and jump at YOUR command now that you are done being willing to jump at his?

Yay for a realistic but determined attitude!

I think that is so important - to know that you're not cured! I think that obeservation of having a malfunction in your thinking applies to so many of us! I know it applies to me. How else did we get to where we are/were needing WLS?

I so appreciate your constant reflection and stick-to-it-iveness! You will get this and you will make your goal. Of that I have no doubt.

My biggest demon in the past has been giving up after not being able to stick to perfection. My promise to myself is that if I falter to not abandon the process, but to get back on track. I remind myself that I cannot expect perfection 100% of the time. I had a bad moment yesterday - made a poor choice - not awful, by any stretch of the imagination, but not on the plan for the day..... In the past I would have let the whole day (maybe week) be a waste and just binged to hog heaven, but yesterday I got back on plan. Easy no, Important, yes!

You're not alone. There are many of us fighting everyday. Here's to hoping you start having many more good days than bad. The more good days you can string together, the easier it will be.

I know exactly what you mean and I can totally relate. I think as long as we keep being accountable and keep attempting to make changes we will be successful in the the long run. The surgery has not changed the thought process but, it seems you have because the "monkey" is talking but, you are not always listening.