please help very emotional
I just don't know what's wrong with me, I started crying today when my daughter told me that what I was doing on my computer seemed to be more important than anything else. And well yes it is, maybe I have become a little obsessed with this forum, but I am learning so much from all of you who have had VSG as well as those who are about to like myself.
I think I am fearing the unknown, and afraid to let go of all my friends (food). They have been my comfort for so many years in every emotion good and bad. I think I am in mourning on one hand and on the other just can't wait to begin a new phase of my life. I want to stop beating myself up for losing weight and then the yoyo thing, gaining it all back and then some and feeling like a failure once more.
I hope I am not just rambling on here, just a flood of emotions going on before I embark on this exciting journey.
Any thoughts are appreciated. Thanks.
I think I am fearing the unknown, and afraid to let go of all my friends (food). They have been my comfort for so many years in every emotion good and bad. I think I am in mourning on one hand and on the other just can't wait to begin a new phase of my life. I want to stop beating myself up for losing weight and then the yoyo thing, gaining it all back and then some and feeling like a failure once more.
I hope I am not just rambling on here, just a flood of emotions going on before I embark on this exciting journey.
Any thoughts are appreciated. Thanks.
I'm only 4 days out so I'm still in the fear of the unknown early stages.
You are going through an incredible change by having weight loss surgery.
Its totally understandable that this is a very emotional time for you.
I'm sure it is for all of us.
I too mourned the loss of over eating but gradually
my mindset has changed to I'm looking forward to being
freed from the bondage of over eating and running to food for comfort.
Consider... how do you feel when you over eat?
I almost always felt disappointed in myself
and frequently would say "WHY did I do that...again!"
Over eating is a punishment not a reward.
It took me a long time to figure that out.
We're adults now, not babies.
We need to learn how to not indulge every impulse.
I hope you will be freed from your fears and food addictions
through this process. Best Wishes!
You are going through an incredible change by having weight loss surgery.
Its totally understandable that this is a very emotional time for you.
I'm sure it is for all of us.
I too mourned the loss of over eating but gradually
my mindset has changed to I'm looking forward to being
freed from the bondage of over eating and running to food for comfort.
Consider... how do you feel when you over eat?
I almost always felt disappointed in myself
and frequently would say "WHY did I do that...again!"
Over eating is a punishment not a reward.
It took me a long time to figure that out.
We're adults now, not babies.
We need to learn how to not indulge every impulse.
I hope you will be freed from your fears and food addictions
through this process. Best Wishes!
VSG Aug. 30, 2011 HW 266 SW 249 GW 166 lbs.
I just wanted to let you know, it really is scary for all of us. I went to Mexico for mine so I was totally freaking out about that aspect and still had the fear of pain after the surgery. It's only reasonable to be in fear. I just decided that all I could do is make my best guess as to what would make the rest of my life better. I made my decision and then felt the rest was in God's hands. After that, I was at peace. Sometimes, I just have to turn things over to him and let it go. I feel that God his plan and all I can do is make my best guess at what's right and leave the rest up to him.
I am nine weeks out now and it's been a great experience. None of the bad stuff I feared has happened. It did take a while to wrap my mind around not eating for so long though. I have hardly ever been hungry but it's weird to not eat hardly ever. Now I sometimes look at people eating things like a big mac and am like "why are they doing that". He He I don't even mean it in a judgmental way. It's just been so long since I have desired something like that, that it truly is like why would someone want to do that. He He Then it hits me, oh yeah I used to do that too. They do it because they enjoy it. He He
It's just for me, now that so much has changed, I just don't see food the same way at all. I really could take it or leave it. Most of the time I only eat because I am supposed to get in all this protein to help me loss weight. It's really a weird experience when I used to LOVE food. I guess it's kind of like an ex, you were nuts about them for years, then after things sour, you look back and think why in the world was I so nuts about that idiot. He He. Well, my love affair with food is over. He He, I could take it or leave it, it really means nothing to me anymore. It doesn't even look good to me anymore, kind of like ex's. He he
Anyway, that's my experience. Everyone has their own path though. Do try to find peace with your decision though. I slept so much better and worried so much less after deciding to just let God's plan unfold. I am not a super religious person but I have lived long enough to realize I can't control nearly as much as I would like to in life. So, I feel all I can do is take my best shot at things and leave the rest up to fate and/or God. No matter how bad we want to control the outcome of the surgery, none of us can. All we can do is get the guts to go through with what we guess will be the best for our future.
Good luck on your journey. Let us know how you are doing.
I am nine weeks out now and it's been a great experience. None of the bad stuff I feared has happened. It did take a while to wrap my mind around not eating for so long though. I have hardly ever been hungry but it's weird to not eat hardly ever. Now I sometimes look at people eating things like a big mac and am like "why are they doing that". He He I don't even mean it in a judgmental way. It's just been so long since I have desired something like that, that it truly is like why would someone want to do that. He He Then it hits me, oh yeah I used to do that too. They do it because they enjoy it. He He
It's just for me, now that so much has changed, I just don't see food the same way at all. I really could take it or leave it. Most of the time I only eat because I am supposed to get in all this protein to help me loss weight. It's really a weird experience when I used to LOVE food. I guess it's kind of like an ex, you were nuts about them for years, then after things sour, you look back and think why in the world was I so nuts about that idiot. He He. Well, my love affair with food is over. He He, I could take it or leave it, it really means nothing to me anymore. It doesn't even look good to me anymore, kind of like ex's. He he
Anyway, that's my experience. Everyone has their own path though. Do try to find peace with your decision though. I slept so much better and worried so much less after deciding to just let God's plan unfold. I am not a super religious person but I have lived long enough to realize I can't control nearly as much as I would like to in life. So, I feel all I can do is take my best shot at things and leave the rest up to fate and/or God. No matter how bad we want to control the outcome of the surgery, none of us can. All we can do is get the guts to go through with what we guess will be the best for our future.
Good luck on your journey. Let us know how you are doing.
On my way!!!!!!Crissy
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