I was sure I was not going to do this, but.......

OK I had all my pre op testing and final appt with my surgeon today. I was sure I was Ok with this surgery, but now Im really nervous, am I really ok with removing part of my stomach, to be thin. what if Im sacrificing a part of me and it doesn't work??<br />
I know Im probably over thinking this but what if I don't survive the surgery, The surgeon says Im at minimal risk but now Im rethinking this.... help everyone.<br />
Im at reasonably good health now, I have High BP and Im at risk for diabetes, have bad knees and back pain I can loose wt on my own but cant keep it off.<br />
Im not usually a wimp but there was sooooo much info given out today that Im still digesting ha, all of it. is this normal to feel this way? I cant believe I was so sure yesterday and now Im waffling. I have this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. any advice to calm my nerves?? my surgery is Monday.<br />
I dont have anyone else to talk to, I need to be strong for my family because they have reservations, I cant let them know Im scared too, Im an LPN which is not helping me, I know the things that can go wrong. <br />
Ive spent months researching so its not like anything they told me today was anything I didn't already know so why am I doing this?? anyone?

Being nervous is normal! You have done all the research. When you did the reseach did you double think yourself a month ago? I don't think so since you have come this far through the process. You are an intelligent woman who has done your homework. Do not let your nerves make you make a decission you will want to take back.

Thanks fysicsgirl I needed that

I am nervous and know they will probably have to give me something next month to calm my nerves, I imagine I am only going to get worse as the day approaches.  I do however try to look on the bright side of when I will be feeling better and living a healthier lifestyle, I know it doesn't work most times but I do try.  I have young children at home and that is what is keeping me going but I always told myself the last few years that the next time I lose weight it is for good and I wasn't going to try anymore diets because I could lose lots then I would put it right back on, so I wanted to make sure I was at that stage where I was in it for everything and no turning back to the unhealthy lifestyle.  I will prove to my family it can be done, they are very discouraging about me having the surgery, I think some are jealous that this can actually work for me and them but they won't have it done and will battle obesity for the rest of their lives.  My mom is encouraging me lately, I basically told her after she tried to talk me out of the surgery how all she ever talks about is people's weight and i never want to hear it again :) when she said I can do it on my own, when I gain 5 lbs go back onto the diet instead of it spinning out of control, I then asked her what was her reason and she tells me her age but I think this is more healthier to keep it off then to keep going on a diet every year and then putting on the weight back on plus more.  

Thanks jackie00 you are right!

I think no matter how sure you are about surgery, you're still going to waffle and have a little bit of doubt -- it is a massive surgery and life change, after all. But think about the things you're actually afraid of, and weigh them against the odds of complcations and the long-term toll obesity will take on your health, and I think you'll calm down. Of course there are risks, but remember the reason you started on this journey to begin with!

Thanks Jean B. I can always count on OH to help put thing into perspective.

 Its only natural to feel scared, and worried.  I felt the same way your feeling.  I even considered canceling the surgery after i was hooked up to IV to start surgery.  But I am so glad I went through with it.  I was off my BP meds the first week.  I am so happy I had this done Just wish I had done it sooner.  You will be great and I will send prayers your way. 

Thanks Rosa L, prayers are always appreciated.

You are only human if you get the jitters before surgery. Especially if you work in the medical field and know how things can go. However, you have tried diets that have not let you keep the weight off, HB pressure (and you KNOW what trouble that can lead too) diabetic risk, bad knees and back pain. So maybe you should think about what life will be like without all those problems as they become resolved one by one due to VSG. Only you can decide what is best for you and your family but if you keep reading these boards you will find that hardly anyone regrets their decision for a healthier lifestyle. Good luck and keep us posted.