What % of your EW did you end up losing?
I love reading stories like yours where you do lose the 100% (and then some). It gives me hope and inspiration. I'll never been 110lbs but I will be the best ME I can be. :)
Ginger
To be honest, I feel like I have really come full circle from where I was just 8 short months ago. I thought I was ready then to get this done and start my journey but I didn't realize how wrong I was.
The journey began when I started looking into my life and pinpointing everything that needed to change. And guess what? It wasn't just food!! It was sooo much more then that!! It's been my way of thinking, it's been the way I view food and what food "does" for me. It's been the way I cope and deal with things. I could go on and on. I really looked deep inside of myself and I realized so much ugliness about myself and the excess 165lbs was merely a symptom of everything going on INSIDE me. I'm chipping away at the demons and knocking them out one by one. It's not an easy transformation but its well worth it.
Before I felt I had no worth.... I let myself go. I felt the only thing I had done right in life was my kids... so I threw myself into that and lived solely to be a mom. I wanted to be the best mom I could be and I believe I have been a good mom. But something I've realized is that MOMS need to take care of themselves in order to be more then just a good mom, but to be the BEST mom they can be. I just didn't see any value in myself at all. I walked around in holey, unkempt clothes that were 5+ years old! I walked around with my hair uncut for 2 years. I never polished my nails and never took care of myself. Once I realized that I am worth something, even at 350lbs I was worth something.... things changed inside of me. I began really focusing on what I was allowing in my body. Someone that's worth something doesn't eat junk 24/7. I lost 25lbs on my own over the last 3 months. I stopped with the sodas (before it was EVERYTHING I drank) and I stopped with getting fast food when I was out running errands. I know that THIS will be the hard thing for me. I tend to stop and get something to drink for the kids and I if we're out and about and sometimes it comes with a snack. Better planning has changed that. Carrying a water bottle around with me helps. Plus I printed out a picture of myself in the worst pose and position possible and mounted the picture on a piece of cardboard and literally hung it from my car's rear view mirror. It's hard to go through a drive thru when you're looking at your big ol' ugly self. LOL It's something I NEEDED to do in order to overcome that urge. I'm happy and very proud that I realized the issue, found a remedy (water bottle AND fat pic) and now I avoid fast food all together without any problems. :)
So I've done a lot of growing over the last 8 months and before when I complained about the 8 months that I had ahead of me.... man, I never knew I'd grow so much in that time. I thank God for the 8 months I had to grow, learn and research. Now.... let the shrinking begin!! :)
Ginger
Ginger,
your story is inspirational in itself. I am scheduled to have surgery on May 16th, and there are times when i take a step back and think "What the hell am I doing?!" I havent really started changing myself yet... I feel lost sometimes like I am not doing the right steps like i read about people doing on OH.. Yeah I got the necessary steps for a quick approval completed, but i have been in a waiting game for over a month now with a surgery date...I didn't have to do a pre op diet, just follow the steps... You sound like you really have your head together or I should say you sound so ready!... and the soul searching and the self worth you have described has really gotten me to realize I need to look inside myself and start getting ready for this.. I keep questioning my decision, and after reading this post, I now know thatI need to stop waiting for the surgery, and start my new life now...I am going to use your picture on the mirror idea... I am 320 lbs and i need to lose 140lbs for my goal of 180. I am 5'10. My doctor tells me that they want my goal to be 210 but thats not acceptable... Like you, I have no idea when the last time i weighed under 200lbs. It seems so far away, but the best thing that i see is people losing 100lbs or more in like 4 or 5 months... I want that to be me soo bad....I know we can do this!!!
Do you have a surgery date yet?
Thanks for sharing your experience thus far.
So use the time you have before surgery to really find out who YOU are. For so many years I was the "fat mom" or the "fat wife" or whatever... but I'm ready to live as just me.... the best me I can be.
You know, something I've learned in my journey so far is that I can do WHATEVER I set my mind to. I didn't think I'd go a day without soda.... I did it. I didn't think I'd go or even want to go a day without stopping at a fast food place for a soda and snack if I was out and about.... but I did it. I didn't think I could drink 64 oz of water in a day .... but I did it. I didn't think I could stop eating fattening foods like ice cream or whatever... but guess what? Yep, I did that too. I am amazing myself at what I can do and for now, I'm living in that.
Ginger
P.S. No date so far, but I"m hoping to hear my APPROVAL (I'm not even considering a denial) this week or next. :) I'll get a date after that! Hoping for mid May but hey, it's in God's hands and in His timing, man, it's sooo much easier like that! LOL
You've done great and I appreciate you chiming in!! Thanks for your inspiration!
This tool + a little work and determination on my part = SUCCESS. You can definitely do this. I weigh what I was in middle school so I definitely understand not being about to visualize what it will be like. I still do a double take when I see my reflection or hold up an item of clothing and say "no way will this fit", but it does!
Best of luck to you. It's not easy, but it is possible!
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