Back from the dr (loooong)

Very true Ann. When I start letting the heart take over and get away from the scientific aspect of it, that's when I completely lose it with no hope of recovering.

Thank you so much for the compliments with regards to my WL. It is still very hard to see what everyone else is able to see. And I have a very hard time with asking for help. I tend to be the one that will do without before asking but I think with this, I will have to do it.

The questions you posed for me are excellent and a few that I haven't thought of. I am thinking of things, writing them down. I'm thinking about the things I need or want for the hospital stay and after I come home, and all kinds of questions for the cardiologist as well as the surgeon, for pre op, surgery and post op. I did talk to Cameron's principal at school. Because of his surgery on the 4th as well as mine. I also spoke with is 3 teachers and this counselor. I worry that he knows to much but then I don't want him to be completely blind about things.

I am determined to not let this beat me. Regardless of which way they fix it, THEY WILL FIX IT. I didn't do all this and come this far to not continue in my journey! And I appreciate you and everyone else that has wished me well and given me offers of guidance and help. It really shows me where I am in my life and who is there with me!

Theresa,

I am sorry you did not get good news today.  I know how over whelming this must be. Your WLS has done somuch for you and has made you healthy in so many ways. Your heart is on thing it may not be able to fix.  You weight may not even be the reason for your heart problems.  It may have been genitic or something. 

Trust me when I say, i do understand were you are coming from. I do know how scary this is.  How does a 23 year old woman who just had a beautiful baby boy find out she has cardiomyopathy?  Her heart is only functioning at 30%.  She has three beautiful children who needs her and a life she has to live.  Was it anything I did?  I followed the books.  To this day, it is still unknown how women develop peri partum caridomyopathy.  No one in my family had it.  I was fortunate, my heart repared itself within 6 months post delivery.  But damn, I was scared sh*tless. 

I know you went into this WLS feeling deep down inside that this would take care of everything.  But even if you did not have this surgery and you were normal BMI and weight, you could still have this condition.  You will never know.  But what you do know, is what your prognosis is now.  What you need to do.  And by gosh dang it...FIGHT!!  Do not let this defeat you.  It OK to moron and be mad and angry.  That is so normal.  Once you ge through this mourning stage, pick yourself up and fight!! 

Hey Melissa...

Thank so much for writing. Sorry it has taken me a bit to get back to ya. Just been taking time to read and re-read and soak everything in.

I agree with alot of what you say but I still blame myself or ask the "what if's". I'm glad your heart was able to repair itself and pray that you suffer no ill effects.

I knew that WLS may not fix everything but I guess deep down inside, this is the ONE thing that I wish was able to be fixed by it. But I am arming myself with the best surgeons, great family and friends and a spirit of not giving in. Thanks so much for the thoughts.

Please know  we are here for you to talk, vent, anything.  (your not whining, not in my book anyway).  I'm sorry the news was not as good as you wanted, please know you are in my prayers. ((((hugs)))), lys

((((HUGS))) I'm so sorry that things are not looking the best right now. Just hang it God will see you through this! Call me if you need to chat! Sending up many prayers for you! 

Hi Theresa,
   So sorry that you are going through so much right now. Prayers are coming your way that everything will work out. Maybe it is good that this was caught  now, and not when you had a heart attack or something. THis is one more way of taking care of yourself so that you can be there for Cameron. Prayers to Cameron that his ear surgery will go well, also.
Cindy

I was dying to come home and read your post. I have been thinking about you all day. I am so sorry that you got bad news. What Ann said really struck me. Its so true. I know you are going through a hard time and will be praying for you!

My thoughts and prayers are with you.  God will get you through this,  just put your trust in him and continue to believe in the power of prayer.
Sherry