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Hi Theresa,

I, somewhat understand how you feel because Connor was a miracle baby for me and for a long time I would jusy spoend my time gazing at him in wonder - and still do actually - I would love to spend all day every day with him and if I could find a job working with him maybe I would take it. But I also realise that I am more than just being Connor's Mom -   I really love it but it is not my whole identity - it is a part of me....after all I went 46 years without being Connor's Mom.

SO I divide my time between spending as much time with him as I can and doing other things so I can talk with him about it and so he can find his own identity too. I do not want him to grow up to be a mama's boy and get picked on at school because of it.... he has things he likes to do outside of me and I need to encourage that without making him feel guilty about it.  I realised this when I heard him tell Ildi (his first au pair) that he would love to go to the movies with  her but mommy would be on her own and could I come too so I would not be alone! I felt awful realising he feels a responsibility for me too - so I told him I wanted to be alone to do somethings and he should go without me - he was hapoy as long as he thought I was doing something and did not need him. I think as he and I spend all week every week together I need to not make him feel responsible for me. Easy to say and hard to do, right?

I am sure phycologists have written books on this and I may buy one to read....

You have to do whatever you think is right Theresa realising that Cameron will not always be little and he needs kid's company like you need adult company..... and you do have a chance to go into a career you might like - take it while you can!

Jackie





 

What a big decision you have ahead of you!  I'm not going to advise you other than this tidbit of my own experience with Nate...  Nate graduated 10 years ago with a degree in Computer Engineering.  And this June we will make the last payment to the blood sucking student loan nazi's.  Did I mention that Nate is the Production Manager for Ritz Camera?  Yep, a job he adores in the photography industry he has worked in since his very first job!  So, what I'm getting at is there is NOTHING worse than paying a damn student loan for something that serves no purpose to you other than being a bill that is due every month.  I wish you the luck to choose wisely and find out what you really want to do before you invest more time and money!  :)

Enjoy your time off with Cameron!