I can not believe it has been six years since my life took a major turn..  I was blessed with RNY on that day.. I would not trade it for the world..  I have had my ups and downs.. The ups include being in OH magazine, speaking for OH, appearing on Big Medicine.. Traveling all over the US and Canada, meeting people that consider me an inspiration, being a pebble, meeting life long friends ( no matter how bad I screw up), and of course getting healthier..

The downs have been another thing.. Most of them I brought on myself so I have no one to blame.. Those include dying twice.. Once due to the fact that I didn't stop smoking, before surgery, and coding due to my oxygen levels bottoming out.. The second time was due to drowning when I fainted, due to not taking my vitamins on a regular basis like we are supposed to do.. We have to remember that this is a lifestyle change and we must do what we are told..

I have made several bad choices along the way and done some things that I shouldn't have.  These choices caused pain and anger to those that loved me.. I want to tell You that I am sorry.  Just know that I am not a bad person just a sick person trying to get well..

Another bad is the way I have treated people that trusted me..  I am sorry for the pain that I caused you.  I know I am not worst person in the world and I never claimed to be the best I just want to be good..  I owe you guys..

Okay enough of the Bad stuff.. I have been very blessed too.. I have people in my life that I would have never met.. Some of them are not around but still made a big influence in my life.. I can still remember my first OH convention.. PRE-OP weighing almost 500 pounds and being accepted.. This was all made possible by Rachel and Yvonne.. Thank you all so much.. Rachel.. Good luck on your marriage..

Y, what can be said about you?  I love you.. You were the first person I talked to on OH and you were an angel on Earth.. A real God-send..  I wish that one day I can be half the person you are.. I know that I am setting high standards, I just have to try to do what I can.. Did you ever know that you're my hero, and everything I would like to be?  Again, I love you..

And then you all know I couldn't an OH post without talking about my Pretty Girl..  Debra, do I need to say anything?  Well you know me, I love to hear myself talk.. I love you.. I know we have been through hell and back and it hasn't been easy at all.. You were by my side both times that I died and never left me alone..  That means so much to me..  I guess when I got my tattoo, for Big Medicine, it was a foreshadowing.. I guess I will still be here.. Please know that you too are my hero.. You have taken me places and shown me things that I never would have experienced had I not met you.. Thank you for everything, I love you and like my tattoo says I will still be here..

I know I have left people off here and I am sorry just know that I know I am a blessed man and if you are on this journey with me and the others.. Stop right now and take your vitamins.. LOL..

Thanks for everything..

PEACE

Happy Hump Day..

Today I am grateful..

For late night and early morning phone calls..

That the man in the mirror is not looking so bad these days..

That I still have TRUE friends that really care about how I am doing no matter how hard I pusehed them away..

For OH..

That I am able to do some things that I would have never done after having this surgery..

Good Monday Morning..

Today I am grateful..

For a great weekend..

For self control

For getting to spend time with Stromboli..

For the men that jumped in, so unselfishly, to save my life, when I drowned last year.  When I was spending time with Stromboli I realized had those men not jumped in.  I would not have been able to spend time with him..

For Debra.. Thank you for everything this weekend..  I had a great time.. I love you..

Happy Friday Eve..

Today I am grateful..

That I still fit in my suit..

For little things in life..

That my Nationals are coming in today and we have a meeting..

For being told I look good..

For being myself and getting another day in..

Good Morning..

Today I am grateful..

For true colors that show..

For my Homey turning 21.. Man, I feel old.. LOL

For eye opening things that happen..

For understanding that it is not a mistake if you learn from it..

For friends that are there..   In spite of my faults..

GOOD MORNING OH'ers.. IT'S FRIDAY ! ! 

Today I am grateful..

For a good meeting..

For the support I have at the meetings..

For being able to wear pink and feeling secure..

For the sun and the rain..

For life in general..

SONG OF THE WEEK

BEHIND BLUE EYES BY THE WHO

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

And no one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling lonely lies

But my dreams, they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
i have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams, they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
i have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it´s like
To be mistreated
To be defeated
Behind blue eyes

and No one knows how to say
That they're sorry
And don't worry
I'm not telling lies

But my dreams, they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
i have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.


MOVIE QUOTE OF THE WEEK..

"IF YOU MESS WITH THE BULL, YOU ARE GOING TO GET THE HORNS"  FROM THE BREAKFAST CLUB.

Happy Hump Day..

Today I am grateful..

For acceptance..

That I am still of service to some..

That I realize that I have been more of a taker than a giver and it is time to give back..

For seeing the light..

That I have people in my life that care..

Today I am Grateful..

For Kim stepping in and posting for me..

For knowing that temptation is wrong fix to a real need..

For medical tests.. I know that they weren't what I wanted to hear although I needed to hear it.. I have NOT been taking my vitamins regularly in the las two years and I am paying dearly for it right now.. I have some major health concerns (short term memory loss, kidney damage, and several other issues)  that are directly related to lack of vitamins.. I beg of you to PLEASE take the vitamins that your doctor prescribes daily.. I look back at the damage I have done to my body and hopefully it can be repaired in some way..

For early morning phone calls and texts..

For seeing a small spark that hopefully will reignite the fire I had for helping others..

For people that believe in me..

Happy Friday Eve..

Today I am grateful..

For being MON..  It was great to talk to Chubs..

For reality..

For friends that care..

For knowing I have issues.. Now if I could just correct them.. LOL

That I have a job..

Good Monday Morning..

Today I am grateful..

For a full weekend of sleep..

That I live in the greatest country of all..

For friends..

That I am able to see the light..

For my peeps..

Happy Friday Eve..

Today I am grateful..

That I am alive..

For the small things in life..

For smiles..  Give one away today..

For being able to share..

For friends past and present..