holding pattern - where I am today- long

first let me say I admire those of you that are farther out and getting it together and losing agian.

I have decided to make peace with the idea that I do not have the emotional energy or time to diet right now - and at almost 4 years out diet IS what I do to LOSE weight

I get my water, vits, protien and some exersize in almost ALL the time - missed one does of vits in the last 4 weeks and didn't hit my water one day last week.

I know I am not a size 4 or even a size 12 but after a life time of being a size 28++ a 14/16 feels pretty darn good!!

I know that by my doc's standards I have met my goals - 80% of excess wieght lost and kept off 2 plus years.

am I totally happy with where I am  - yes and no - I am about the size I was at age 11, my health is great, I can maintain my weight with very little effort for the first time in my life, I can do ANYTHING I want to, I am stronger emotionally and mentally than ever before in life - I have the self confidence to walk into any situation and do what I want/need too
woudl I love to see the number 1 on the scale  - OH YEAH I would but not enough to put in the effort right now.

I have lost 215 pounds and weight 210 most days - I have a  7-10 pound range and stay in it pretty well - I still panic when the numbers creep up  to the top of my range each month but am learning to not panic as much, I still am excited when I creep down a few pounds to the bottom of my range but the scale is my friend

for years I could not weigh on a home scale and to be able to each morning is part of the me I have become.

Anyone else out there in a holding pattern? have you made peace with it?

I think you will wind up being the happiest if you accept yourself as you are. And 215 lbs is one hell of an accomplishment.

I am not there. I am maintaining, except for the last couple of weeks, I have added some due to hollidays and the fact I quit smoking.

Anyway, congrats on the weight loss and finding that peace. I think your doing it the right way, vits, water, excercise, your living a healthy  life!

Danni, You sure are thinking deep for a Sunday morning. LOL  That is why we love you.  I can so relate to everything you are saying. Our situation is so similar. You have done a amazing job. I know you will hear alot of that. You may be thinking they will all say that. But, you have accomplished the ultimate goal. You realize it. That is harder than actually doing it. Our mind is what messes us all up in the end. Congrats to you on that huge accomplishment.
Me, I am not in that place yet. Yes, I do realize some of what I have accomplished. But, I am not there yet. I have my 6 yr anniversary coming up in a few days. I am happy about that. I will celebrate it hard. But, I still would love to be where you are at in your heart and mind. Love ya. Thanks for making us look deep inside ourselves for these answers that make us even better.

kathy I think what I was thinking was I felt like I SHOULD be trying to lose more but I don't feel that way - so I had to come to peace with that feeling.

you have come a long way too.

my surgoen used to tell us - I can only fix your insides YOU have to fix your brain

you will get to that place mentally b/c you are defintally  there physically.

love ya girlie

Danni, most of us did this for ONE reason- to finally be healthy.  You have accomplished that goal and then some!!  You were a fantastic mentor for me throughout my journey and for that I will be forever grateful.  A lot of people find that once you stop worrying about it more weight just comes off.  But either way, you should be very proud of everything you've accomplished.

Hey sis!  Ok, first of all, bookmark this post, print it up, save it somehow.  You will need to re-read this again and again.  I think part of you has been at peace with where you are at for a while, now your conscious mind/heart has gotten there too.  You have accomplished your original goal of getting healthy and being able to really live life to the fullest.  You can run around with your kids, slide down slides, swing with them and basically be the mom and wife you want to be. 

You have the energy to be a single mom (when needed) to three very active kids, maintain a house, go to school and be an amazing friend to a whole slew of people.  Your energy is being spent on the important job of living life. 

Like the rest of us, so much of your life before was spent focusing on losing weight, that it seems weird and odd not to have to do that now.  I totally support your decision to NOT put effort into losing more.  Definitely continue to focus on maintaining your health- vitamins, water, activity/exercise, but enjoy your accomplishment!  

When you do get frustrated and that old record of "lose more weight" starts playing in your head again, re-read this post.  I look forward to the day that I can join you in the maintenance part of the journey.  I am more at peace with my journey than I was last year, but I do still need to prove to myself that I can get to a better/healthier place.

Congrats sis!

Debbi

I totally support your decision to NOT put effort into losing more. 

thanks Sis I needed that

Danni,

You are very instrumental to alot of people. Including myself!   It's such a shame we are all far away but we are close in heart and thought and that is important!!  I'm "okay" with where I am but if the scale creeps up, then yeah, I do panic but that's stinking thinking!  I know I am in much better health than I was 2 years ago.  I think for me, I am just wanting to reach my first goal and haven't done so yet due to all that happened in 2009.  I hope for it to happen this year and if it doesn't, then so be it.  I am still at a good weight and size, but HEALTHY!

Love you girl!! Lots!!!

Blessings,

Nina

Wow, your new avatar pic is amazing! Keep up the good work!!

Thanks John. Hope all is well with you and yours!! Best toyou always!!

Blessings,

Nina