I did it! (XPost)

I have missed joining my husband at his company Christmas party the last two years. I have been keeping to myself at home as much as possible because of my self esteem issues due to weight . I hardly went out of the house except to see family a few times in over two years.

Since I healed from surgery I can walk further and breathe easier while walking. I have been to the Renaissance Festival, shopping twice at a large bazaar over the Thanksgiving holiday, shopping several times for groceries etc. (which DH had taken over doing). Doing these things may seem simple to some, but I am just so elated and excited to be living again.

Last year I got dressed and ready for DH's party and felt so horrible about what I had done to myself I couldn't make myself go. I stayed home. Then the guilt set in for making my husband go alone without his wife to share it with.

Tonight I put on my make up and got dressed and ready, a bit nervous, but very happy. I focused on getting the job done. I forced myself to ignore thoughts about how I felt about DH's company party. I felt a bit nauseated as I started to get dressed, then made a note to self to "quit it!". I was shaking a bit as I put on my lipstick.

When we arrived at the event I found, to my shock, that I was ok. I felt good about what I have done to get myself where I am today. I even felt pretty good about how I looked. I may be at about the weight I was when his close co-workers saw me last, but I feel so much better. I'm in a much better place mentally. Physically... I'll get there.

DH was so very supportive, as usual. He looked great too. We spoiled him with a nice slimming suit from the Men's Warehouse this week. He hadn't gotten a new suit since our wedding, about four years ago, so it was time. He looked so happy. It was obvious he was happy I was going with him. His company has grown by leaps and bounds. Met so many people. (And I wasn't constantly worrying about what everyone thought about my butt being so damn big.) DH was recognized for 20 years of service and got his 20 year pin. We even danced. What a great night!

What a great story.  I felt every emotion with you.  Congrats and keep up the great work.

God Bless You.  Their are many people out there in your sistuation.  You are going to have so many WOW moments and one day you will look back and say it was worth it. I don't post very often but I really relate to your story.

I saw the pictures you posted on your profile page and you both looked fabulous!!  I know what you mean about living life again.  Good for you for getting out there again.  Things will keep getting better and better for you!!

Laura

What a wonderful Christmas Story.

I had tears of joy rolling down my face, I am so very happy for your.

Peace Joy and Love to you at Christmas time.

Just think how well you will be doing at Easter.

May the almighty Bless you and your Hubby too.,

Way to go Michelle.  Sometimes the obstacles are all in our head and once we work through them by "putting on the lipstick and showing up" we realize that.  Congratulations for working through the fear and going to the party.  There are so many more WOWs ahead of you so just get ready for 'em, they're coming!

What a wonderful story.  I love the pictures, you look so happy that you went.  And what a handsome husband-I know he was so proud of you for going with him.  Get ready for lots of changes-A year from now you're going to be complaining cuz your size 10 jeans are too big!!

Good for you! And you look so beautiful! I love that jacket! DH is looking awfully handsome his own self! I know exactly how you felt....we're going to DH's company Christmas party for the first time. I think he's been there about 12 years. Now I'm scared to go shopping for something festive to wear!

Thank you. I got glitter everywhere with that jacket. It was in my car, at my desk, in the bathroom, my purse, at our table, you could tell where I had been by following the glitter.   But it was fun.

Have fun shopping. Enjoy the new you! You're looking great. Hope you two enjoy your evening as much as we did ours.

Thank you all for your kind words. We really had a wonderful time. The rewards of what I'm finally doing to take hold of my life are starting to become reality. This is really becoming an amazing jouney for me already.

I wish you all wonderful holidays full of love and lots of WOW!s.