Fabulous Friday WLS Express

Yes, I know it is 3:00 in the morning. This is just not right. I'm eating right I'm exercising. But, I am still not sleeping. Anxiety at work is really taking it's toll on me. I wish I could suppress my feelings and have that I don't give a **** attitude like so many other people.  What kills me about it is those are the ones that come out looking good because they don't let others see them sweat so we are the ones that look like idiots because from the outside looking in I'm losing control. Maybe I am.. I can't believe I am at a job for 15 yrs as of yesterday and I still have not mastered dealing with coworkers. Thanks for listening...
The good news. It is really good news is that as of yesterday I have officially lost 11 lbs in 6 days. No, it is not from the stress. It is from keeping my calories under 1200 and working out. (When I am stressed I usually reach for food first)  Do I feel like I am starving? Yes. Do I get shaky? (probably mental) Yes.. But, the good thing is I am on a roll again. That is what works for me.
I am super excited for Linda (that sexy Amarillo girl) to come hang with all of us the weekend after next. She is excited too. She is doing the Walk/Run in Grand Prarie with us that weekend.

I hope everyone has a awesome day.
Prayers for all of those in need. Prayers for the unspoken ones too..

Good Morning Train!

I was up at 3 too Kathy, but that's my normal work day time to get up, so I can't complain about it being too early except that it's a work from home day.... LOL

Prayers are going out to all that need them!

Here's 3 Doors Downs' Kryptonite to get us rocking on down the tracks!

I took a walk around the world
To ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be
Something to do with you
I really don’t mind what happens now and then As long as you’ll be my friend at the end
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might Kryptonite
You called me strong, you called me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times
I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well,
Will you be there holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might Kryptonite Yeah!! If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be there
Holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might Kryptonite

Ya'll have a great day my friends!

TGIF Kathy & TMB!

I am so happy today is Friday.  Our family Thanksgiving is tomorrow so I am super excited to see them and of course to indulge a little. I am really going to apply the three bite rule.  Yesterday, I found my Mardi Gras ball dress and it fit me perfectly and my BF said it looked as if the dress  was made just for me (he's so sweet). I still want to lose about 10 more pounds prior to February so I will have to get it altered.  Congratulations Kathy on losing 6 lbs in 11 days! 

Good morning TMB.  I dont' know about anyone else but I am SO glad it is Friday.

Yesterday at work was pretty craptastic!  I work for a drapery workroom and we are pretty slow right now because of the economy yet my production staff keeps making mistakes.  I was so frustrated.  I just can't stand wasting fabric because things keep getting mis cut.  Drives me crazy.  3 mistakes from 3 different department**** my desk in the span of 5 minutes.  I was about ready to blow up.

This weekend it looks like Clint is going to have to put in some hours of work from home.  Shouldn't be too bad.  The teenagers will be sleeping tomorrow until..oh..noon.  So we'll just get up 'early', I'll fix something for breakfast and he can get 3 or 4 hours in before the kids get up.

Starting to get excited about all the holiday things going on.  I can't believe Thanksgiving is just 2 weeks away.  I'm glad I'm not the point person for the meal.  I'll be talking to my sister in law and finding out what she wants us to bring but.....I'm off the hook for the full deal.

Wishing everyone a fabulous day!

Good morning everyone!  Sorry to hear that you're not sleeping Kathy.  I know it's difficult, but you have to stop worrying about things you have no control over.  Do what you can and let the rest go.  You can't control what other people do, only how you react to things.  I know, I know, easier said than done.  But it works.  Maybe meditate on it.  I've put on a few pounds from the stress eating I'm doing at work, but I'm trying.

I hope no one is superstitious!  Today's Friday the 13th.  Make it a good day!  I have happy hour after work and will get to see some people that I don't get to work with any more.  I am looking forward to it!

Ya'll have a great day!  I will.  Love ya!!

Jaret's first birthday is tomorrow.  So after the party we are going to get together as a family to discuss the wheres and hows of Thanksgiving.  My day is almost over.  I will be leaving in 10 minutes.  Later.

Good morning TMB taking a just a bit of Me time to post before I jump on this parade known as my life - Kathy I am going to try to copy you b/c I am furstated at my weight - it is up but only 2 pounds so not BAD but anoying b/c I wanted to lose more weight while Tim was gone not maintian it LOL and for how mnay years of my life would I have been excited to maintian 210-215 range  - umm that woudl be my WHOLE life proir to my surgery.

lots going on here but nothing major other than Tim can now talk to us via skype most days - and that is a huge plus - I can handle the seperations just not the lack of comunications - got the teen registared for martial arts, K registared for Bball and on the waiting list for Martial arts, Rach is registarted for mommy and me tumbling and on the waiting list for kindermusic, I am plugging away at school and watching my hosue fall apart around me LOL  - teen and K both had hours of homework last night and we all went to bed by 9 with dished in the sink and unfolded laundry and a downstairs that needs sweeping/mopping desperatly but you know what?? it's ok b/c today we are all up and going - will get K up in a few - and after I get the boys off to school i am taking Rach to "school" and going to finance and getting the "last" of the pay issues delt wtih, coming home and hopefully finishing all of this weeks homework so after school we can go to the bank, tomorrow morning Rach and I will go to walmart and the commissary early - done with wm and to the commissary by 9 when the open is the goal

enjoying my sented wax and burners I got when Deb was here - I think they are the same thing George's mary is selling - if so I will order more from her b/c 3 of them sent my whole house very nicely.

got all my little old lady pill boxes filled this morning and have my list of vits I need to buy soon - I do vits and meds 2 weeks at the time - it works for me

ok thinking hard about what kathy said - if I drop cals and work out more I will be hungry but I will lose weight - hmmm ok keeping that and something Janet told sharyn one time when she said she was hungry at night "it's ok honey you'll still be hungry in the morning"

prayers for those in need - the Lord knows the needs and best answers weither we like them or not
hugs and wishes for a peaceful day to all

TimsDanni
keep praying for our soldiers - they are doing thier jobs and just want to do their best and come home

Kathy,

Don't have time to write a lot this morning, but you know I read - just wanted to say I love ya and I'm thinking about you and your work stuff.  I'm sure it's driving you nuts but I know you will get through it because you are one of the most determined and amazing women I know - and because you have a huge group of people that love you and will be there for you if you need them - to hug, laugh, or hide the bodies (just saying)

Smile and have a great Friday

Good morning.  Way to go Kathy on the eating less and working out!  Hope your stress at work goes down for you soon.

I have to get in to work a little early today to finish up some things from yesterday, then have a meeting at 8:15 that will probably last all morning.  Maybe I'll get more paperwork done this afternoon.

Ben is coming home after school today.  Tomorrow we will go to Marshall to ETBU's football game with my sister and her family.  Go Tigers!

Prayers for Tim and Danni and all others who need them.

Have a great day!

Karla

Morning everyone! I'm up early myself. I just wish I could have one day where I sleep until 7. If I made it to 8 I swear the angels would sing!

I'm not doing too hot lately in my head. Just feeling blah. Worry is such an unnecessary thing but I'm so flippin' proficient at it. I hate worrying about Eric ending up not making it. I really believe he will but an itty bitty shred of doubt is sneaking it's way in. Of course the oncologist can't say 100%. I've heard 97% but you just never know. I know, I know. He could have a helicopter fly up his ass while driving down 35W. But it's hard not to worry if we do everything right, he still might not make it. I think I'll be better after we get a full pathology report after the orchiectomy. My main concern is some of the tumor being part teratoma (which is worse than the very aggressive choriocarcinoma they're positive some of it is) because a teratoma can go bat **** crazy and become a freelance cancer if you will, infecting anything and anywhere in his body (and make it very difficult to treat if they can't find it quickly and eradicate it before it kills him). The oncologist also believes he found a questionable spot on the bone in the pelvic region from the CT scan. Doesn't change course of treatment but would change his staging to be even worse. Oh yay. That's fabulous news. At least it's not throughout his bones, or in his brain at all. Hallelujah! 

I'm also terrified he's going to catch a cold or flu from me or Rhiannon and it will delay chemo. Any delay could kill him right now. He says he's already feeling the cancer coming back into the lungs (round 2 starts on Monday). What an eerie feeling I would imagine. And leaving the tumor in him makes it spit out more cancer cells (testicles have amazing immunity from anything done to the body - for lack of a better description - it's like an isolation cell in a prison and nothing can get in there to kill it.) I've had two second opinions that concur with the course of treatment (leaving it in until round 2 is over to kill some of the tumors in his lungs so he can survive the surgery).  It's just really hard wondering if that will end up biting us back in the shorts.

And what the hell, since I'm at it, why not put out all my crazy for the day? I'm also terrified about getting through ALL of this, and then I get cancer in my 40's or something. It's hard not to think about it because every last family member of mine has died from cancer, my two grandmothers in the early 60's. Why the hell am I worried about 10, 20, or 30 years from now? Sometimes I hate how my brain works. SHUT UP IN THERE! I just hate how I'm 32 but feel like I'm 12 some days. When the hell did I grow up and have grown up problems? 

So I know there's really no sense worrying about it because what will worry change? Absolutely nothing. It will just make me miserable. I'm working on not worrying so much and just letting go, and letting God. I'll get there. Just gotta get over a couple hurdles along the way.

Have a fantastic Friday everyone!

Jenny