Come smile and laugh with me...

I went to work out today.  It was a good day.  I enjoyed my work out, and everything.  But that isn't the funny part.  I went to work first today.  I wore blue jeans and a shirt.  Nothing over the top.  I had to buy new workout clothes a couple of weeks ago.  I bought a medium short and sports bra.  They are fitted, but I need them for my work outs.  I would have never ever wore this to the gym before.

Before I would go to the gym, in the only pair of shorts that fit, and the largest t-shirt to cover it all up.  Ladies you are all shaking your head in agreement.  Then I would watch as the "smaller" ladies would come in and I would dream about being thin.  Dream. 

Today I wore my fitted shorts (similar to biker shorts) something I would never wear before.  And a fitted shirt.  I laughed at myself because I would never wear this. I felt comfortable in my clothes and my skin.  I felt like I could walk in that gym head held high and do my work out without worrying what others where saying about me (I am overly concerned with what others think about me - more so before).  I wasnt today though. 

I stepped out of my "fat" box today and it was a little hard.  I still dont "see" that person in the mirror.  I sometimes see that other girl.  But today for once I made a huge stride towards my mental health (and my physical body, but it wasn't as big of a step!).  So there is hope! They didn't work on my mind, I have to do that...one stride at a time...

Wow, Trish, that's a huge victory---feeling comfortable in your own skin! I always used to worry about the "smaller" ladies at the gym until I realized they were more worried about their own perceived physical faults than mine.

Congrats Tri**** does take time to see the new you.  I've learned some to accept and see "me"; it's a work in progress that's for sure.

Keep believing and working, life is amazing when the self confidence returns.

Awesome post.  Even at 2 years out I still occasionally look in the mirror and am shocked at who I see looking back.  But I LIKE what I see.  Good for you, strut into that gym and OWN it, you deserve it.

Trish,
It was such a pleasure to read your post this morning. I am still a newbie and sometimes that dream, the "THIN DREAM", seems so far away. I know it is in my future, but posts like these keep me motivated.
Thank you for sharing!! Congrats on the great work!
Michele