Need Help!

Kelly,

Thanks for replying and offering your encouragement and support! 

Stress can do that to you! I want to say hang in there and you can do this, too! The most important piece of advice I can give you being a newbie post-op-- CONTINUE replacing your old negative thoughts about food with the new positive ones-- that will definitely make a world of difference!!

I am having to remind myself of that now... Even if I make a bad food choice at breakfast it does not mean my day is ruined or over and I deserve to keep eating the bad stuff!! I can do this, one meal at a time!!!

Thanks!

Jessica, I just bought the book "The Beck Diet Solution" and it helps people to deal with the psychological side of weight loss.  It involves working through solutions to help you refrain from making poor choices.  There's a book and a workbook.  I really think it might be helpful to you.  I'm not very far into it but so far it's made me stop and THINK before I choose to eat something unplanned.

Steph, thanks for taking the time to reply and offering the advice and suggestion on reading. I am currently reading a couple of books right now, and one that I am finding that helps is the "Facing Codependency" by Mia. It is an amazing book and makes me think. I might need to look into "The Beck Diet Solution" though since it deals with the psychological side of weight loss. I've got a million coping skills and things that I am taught to do when I am facing the "poor" eating choices... But, I just get in the irrational side of thinking or buying into what my ED wants me to-- that I forget that I deserve happiness and taking care of myself. It's not secret (from what I post and what you can gather in my postings) that I have suffered with weight for years! I am 27 and this has been a batte for 21 years! Had gastric bypass surger at 25 and thought it would make everything perfect-- the reason why I had choosen to have the weight loss surgery was not to be healthy because at that point my weight had cause no problems for me, and I never knew what I was missing out on because I had never experienced some of the "wow' moments that I am now--- I avoided things that I thought I was too fat for. But, my journey started because I had tried every EXTREME dieting method, eating, not eating, starving myself, etc to lose weight for 17 years since I was 8 (knowingly knowing) and I wanted my grandfather and family to be proud of me-- and I didn't feel like they were proud of me because of what I weighed...  So, I am taking the right steps in my recovery from ED and my journey in WLS-- I just got stuck this week believing I deserved to be fat and in fact I am- very irrational thinking.

Thanks for replying and posting!!

It's easy to start over, just gt the crap out of your house that you know is unhelathy and has no nutritional value.  Toos the oroes and replace them with some protein bars.  Toss the chips and replace them with some dried edemame.  Toss the donuts and replace them with some fruit or do a little baking and make some healthy muffins (Splenda site, Egg Face's blog, or any other NSA whole grain recipe). 

Jessica, you are worth the effort.  You can do this and you have never ending support right here. 

T, thanks for replying and for the encouragement and much needed support!

I live with my grandmother, who I take care of, and she is the one who eats the poptarts, chips, oreos and etc. I usually have great resistance to those and self control! I usually (98% of the time) will make the right choice! If it were up to me I would eat the same thing everyday, every meal and every bite! I feel "safe" within that. However, if I do that then I get so afraid of food, eating out in restaruants, or even eating something different. My relationship is food is what had defined my success and failures in life for YEARS! I am developing a new relationship with food.

I had not been able to exercise for about a month because I had to be cleared from the cardiologist and a lung doctor-- just to find out this past Monday that I am COMPLETELY healthy and I have "exercised induced bronchospasms" aka exercise induced asthma! So, my choices was to stop exercising so vigoriously or to get an inhaler-- I got the inhaler to use only when exercising!!

My wow moment was that the cardiologist in July and the pulmolunogist (lung specialist) on Monday and my PCP in July all called me an ATHLETE- even thought my personal trainer had been calling me that for months now. I STILL do not believe it, I guess...

That actually might have sparked the bad eating choices this week....

I thought to myself on Monday, how can I be an athlete do they see who or what they are looking at. How can they say that I am an athlete they must be teasing or mocking me, and therefore I thought I deserved to be "fat" because well I am. So, I ate and ate all the bad things and made the choice to not even workout once I was officially cleared to start on Tuesday! I just thought to myself I have been out for a month so I must have gained weight during that time...

Maybe I have replied with TOO much information, but thanks for listening!!

awww.... Jessica - those are what I call "comfort foods" and we all turn to them from time to time when we are having a bad week or just feel like indulging.

Don't beat yourself up over it too bad - a little kick in the pants is good because otherwise you would just keep doing what you are doing and that is no good.

I just picked up 2 boxes of the Kashi granola bars at Target yesterday to keep in my desk.  I like the crunchy ones instead of their chewy ones and they have protein in them and no refined flour - just whole grains.

Good luck getting back on track - you can do it!

Sarah

Sarah,

Thanks for taking the time to reply and posting!! I am even scared to eat the healthy whole grain foods right now. I am afraid that is just a "window" to eating the unhealthy carbs. However, I know that we must have a certain number of carbs (60grams) for our brains to function properly daily. I am going to look into the Kashi bars. I usually look at them and put them right back up, and stick to eating the same thing over and over because it's safe. However, I realize I need to redefine "safe" and "unsafe" foods.

Again thanks!!
Jessica

You may put them back again LOL  They are pretty high in carbs.  They also don't have any high fructose corn syrup in them which is the MOST EVIL carb I know of!

I am sure there are many factors in obesity skyrocketing, but HFCS was rarely used before the mid-70's and if you look at a graph of the increase in its use and the increase in obesity, it is the same graph.

Jess I kinda have a differnt outlook than a lot of folks - when I comfort eat I try really hard not to dump and to make sure that I am not eating extra calories - like TOM to me equals good cheese and dark chocolate - ok so I skip other things that are good for me - meat rolls raw veggies etc and have small amounts of high quality sharp cheese and the best quaility of dark , limit how much I bring into the house and go on with life - I am a scale ho and weigh each day at least once so after a few years of this I know how far up I go with my cycle and don't let myself get over that - I KNOW I am putting on 4-5 pounds that week regardless of how little I eat or how much I work out so as long as I stay there I treat myself to what I want and make sure it is good quality b/c I DESERVE DECENT FOOD

ok so this may have totally messed with your head but it is what works for ME - look at WHAT you ate - was it mac and cheese from a box? or homemade the way mom (or whoever) makes it? were they fresh hot homemade rolls or cold ones from a package? maybe if you can think of it this way it will help and the others are right - negitive feelings are not worthy of you dump those and get on with life - start today as today, b/c if you don't it will be yesterday and you still won't be happy with it

peace
Danni

Danni,

Thanks for the outlook! It's the weirdest thing because usually around the TOM I never have cravings as such! I can always sit around with people eating all the foods I use to eat and not miss it at all! And, not even crave or want a bite-- but this week-- wow!  If I eat the bad stuff, I have remained within my given "caloric" intake for the day and the week. I never went over that. 

I love the last sentence in your post--
start today as today, b/c if you don't it will be yesterday and you still won't be happy with it!!! 

Thanks for replying and as always offering a different perspective on it!