daily changes
I relized I dry all my clothes now (not my bras Meggie don't yell at me LOL) instead of hang drying praying for them to not shrink
I know what I need to do - I have to choose to take care of me or I choose to fail
My daily life hasn't changed in a huge way - just a lot of little things that mean a great deal to me. I don't worry about what I wear making me look fat. I start every day with protein instead of a bagel & cream cheese. My laptop fits in my lap because I have one now LOL.
And being able to get up and down off the floor has made my job so much easier (and keeps my jeans cleaner). I had to squat down and fiddle with a PC computer that was under a table at work and was able to squat and stand back up. Pre-op I would have had to put my knees down on the filthy control room floor. And then used the table to pull myself back up to a standing position and do it in stages. Friday, I popped right back up and it felt great to this 50 year old broad !
For me, everything changed, yet everything stayed the same. For example, I still get up with the kids in the morning, except I no longer linger around the kitchen watching the kiddos and hubby eat and wondering what to eat. I start grabbing for the protein. I take vitamins, I get out a water for myself and my husband, and my day begins on a new level.
My mental state is different. I DO things different- mentally. I plan my meals ahead. I get dressed with a certain poise I have not had in a while. Before RNY, I would get my clothes ready to lay out for the day and it would mean throwing clothes around my drawers looking at big giant t-shirts (my fav because it was what I was most comfortable in, I hid behind my clothes), I would find some baggy pants that I would hate to wear, I stopped doing my hair and my make up. I looked like a slob and felt like one. NOW- I get out of the shower (and showers feel so much better these days, I feel clean because my mind is fresh and clean, I feel like I am worth spending the extra $$ on the nice body wash) and I want to smell good, and I put on my nice clothes (even though they are 12/14 and I have only gone down 2 sizes), I feel good about what I wear. I wear my clothes in pride, even though they are usually walmart or target because I refuse to spend money on clothes I will HAPPILY outgrow soon. So I put on my clothes, I scrunch up my curly locks, I whip out the mascara and the sexy lip gloss, I wink in the mirror as I do a final check, I spray the "good" perfume, I started getting my toes done again , and I feel different. I enjoy cooking healthy and my husband has lost 9lbs as well (not that he is obese, but the army thinks he is overweight because he was 208 at 6ft, and they said he had to lose 1% , LOL, so on "my diet", he lost 9lbs and is 199 -wish I was). I feel good about going to the grocery store and not that people are watching me and looking at what I buy and thinking those cookies are for me and not the kids. I take pride in everything now. Everyday is a new day. Before, I was depressed, I was feeling horrible about myself, and I did not want to leave the house.
Mommy to Ethan Lane 12/3/03 weighing 4lbs 11oz 17 3/4"
& Zachary Logan 5/12/07 weighing 3lbs 4oz 16"
& Gavin Liam Due 3/18/11 born 2/3/11 weighing 3lbs 15oz 17"
I LOVE MY PREEMIES!
Mommy to Ethan Lane 12/3/03 weighing 4lbs 11oz 17 3/4"
& Zachary Logan 5/12/07 weighing 3lbs 4oz 16"
& Gavin Liam Due 3/18/11 born 2/3/11 weighing 3lbs 15oz 17"
I LOVE MY PREEMIES!
It is not cool these days to wear pantyhose. Before my RNY I hated to wear skirts and dresses because my thighs rubbed together so much. I would either be uncool and wear pantyhose OR I would wear thigh shapers. Either way, it was super uncomfortable. I recently realized that I don't have to wear hose or thigh shapers under my skirts anymore because my thighs don't rub together anymore! LOVE THAT.
I weighed 313 pounds on December 1, 2008 the day of my RNY surgery and have lost 81%
of my excess body weight to-date. Current as of November 1, 2009
OH Mini-Challenge Goal for New Year's Day is 170 pounds. 11 pounds to go!
I weighed 313 pounds on December 1, 2008 the day of my RNY surgery and have lost 81%
of my excess body weight to-date. Current as of November 1, 2009
OH Mini-Challenge Goal for New Year's Day is 170 pounds. 11 pounds to go!