Why did I do that?!?!

It all started early this morning. Sophie jumped off the bed and sprained her shoulder/arm/elbow whatever...she was holding up her left arm. Off to the vet before breakfast. It was busy so it's almost noon before we get out of there. Sophie just has a sprain, got a shot and is already feeling better. But now I'm hot (it's 103º), need to get gas in the car in this heat and I'm now so hungry and thirsty I'm nauseus. So I pull into Sonic with all good intentions to get a diet limeaid and cool off a bit. Then I hear myself ordering popcorn chicken and a diet cherry coke! That wasn't what me and my brain just decided! That crazy thing changed it's mind and didn't bother to tell me. And what's worse is I ate it! I suppose in the greater scheme of things one order of fried chicken bits isn't going to kill me and it's been weeks since I had a carbonated anything...Lordy it was good to chug that cold fizziness!....But Dammit, this is how I got to 353lbs to start with! I thought I had a good handle on this but the first time I get hot, frustratedly hungrey and discombobulated, I revert back to bad habits without a thought! That scares me!

It's days like this that I question if I can make that new tool work when I get it. NO...I know I will. I just need some more mental work..continuous mental work!

Thanks for letting me vent!

Dee, it's called emotional eating, I deal with it ALLOT.  Funny you mentioned you said one thing and did something (your brain) else.  I've done this myself and felt crazy, lol; wondering how in the world did I allow it to happen.  The brain is a funny thing, something I don't understand that's for sure.

Just hang in there and KEEP trying, you WILL work your tool you know what's necessary; focus on getting it right 90% of the time........the mental part by far is the hardest part of all this.

I bought The BECK DIET SOLUTION book, read a little but need to re-read it.  I do believe she's on to something in the book and I HOPE her recommendations help me.  You might look into getting it.....remember we are a continuous work in progress.

Dee,

You're just human like the rest of us.  None of us will never be perfect.  It will be easier once you get your tool, but we all still have days like this.  Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again.  You'll be fine as long as it's just a blip and not a binge.  And you are the one who has to control that. 

You are getting so close to the end of your pre-op diet.  Hang in there.  You're almost to the starting line. 

Hi Dee,

Emotional eating is the hardest part of our journey with WLS.  I'm 8+ months out and I still struggle with it daily, especially if I'm stressed.

I think I might check out that book....

Hugs,
Lisa D. Mtz.

dee we all have days like that - 2 things A u must not let it effect the rest of day/week/month BECAUSE u have not "blown the diet" b/c after surgery u r not dieting u r living making mostly good choices
and B after surgery, Lord willing u will dump - your tool will point out it said no regardless of what your mind or mouth said
as much asdumping anoys me at 3 yrs out i am very gratefull I dump b/c I am very hard headed n it sometimes takes 2 or 3 really good dumping episodes for my mind to remember we don't eat donuts anymore b/c mr pouch said the answer was no

so don't stress- relax n do what u r suppose to, u will be ok

Thanks for the support, Everyone! I didn't let it wreck my day, DH and I just finished really good salads with grilled chicken and I don't feel guilty any more. Just mad at myself! I never thought I was an emotional eater but I do get upset when my furbabies get hurt!

Thanks to all of you I'm learning to let it go, like Vicki says to leave it at a blip and not turn it into a binge!

Dana...you're the 3rd person to recommend that book, I think I better look into it. Anything that will help!