HELP

This isn't like me, so please bare with me. I have to under go allergy testing next week. This means I have to be off all meds, including my antidepressants, tranquilizer, muscle relaxers, previcid, my antibiotics, my benedryl, clariton, pain pills, anything with a sedative affect. Well the withdrawals have started. My nerves are to the breaking point. I am supposed to move at the end of the month, but by the time I paid the bills, I don't have anything left over to even put down for a deposit. I went to Morristown tonight to attend the support group, the radiator over heated. Stopped got it cooled down enough to add water, got to the hospital and the daggone thing busted all over the pavement. I went in to the the rest room and to wash my hands off, didn't make it to the toilet. So embarrassed. My cell phone was almost dead, forgot to charge it, so here I sat, waiting for someone to come get me. My PCP and the surgeon Dr. Kappa in Kingsport are playing phone tag for my phone referral for this surgeon to do my surgery. Right now there is so much going on, that my nervers are getting out of control, that I am thinking of taking on a new hobby, knife throwing. I don't know right now how much more I can take on. I am thinking about buying me a tent, a fishing pole, and disappear for a few days, just for some quiet time, to regroup. My bestfriend, just about hit the roof, says my parents would have heart attacks, don't know why on that one, they live in another state, and I have fished and camped all my life. I feel like I am about to explode. Don't like the withdrawals and this is just the first day. I have 5 days to go. Thanks for letting me gripe. At least I can't throw knives at y'all. Thanks for listening. Love y'all, Kathy

KATHY, HANG TOUGH....IT'S THE DEVIL TRYING TO WEAR YOU DOWN....YOU CAN DO IT....DO NOT LET HIM MAKE YOU WEAK OR DISRUPT WHAT YOU HAVE STARTED GOING GOOD....DEAL WITH EACH TRIAL EACH HOUR AND PASS IT ON .....KEEP YOUR MIND AND HANDS BUSY....TV...CRAFTS...READ....MOVIES....VISITING PEOPLE...RUNNING AWAY WILL GIVE HIM MORE FREE TIME TO ATTACK....STAND YOUR GROUND AND FIGHT....CAN YOU RESCHEDULE YOUR ALLGERY TESTING SO THAT YOU CAN TAPER OFF MEDS? THAT MAKES IT EASIER....CUT DOSAGE IN 1/2 EVERY THREE DAYS....NO CAFFINE EITHER....THAT'S AN UPPER....ALSO...TAKE COMFORT IN KNOWING I --LIKE OTHERS *****AD THIS....WILL BE PRAYING TO MAKER OF ALL...CONTROLLER OF EVERYTHING. FOR YOUR EASE & COMFORT OF NERVES......GOD BLESS....JANELLA

HEY KATHY, I THINK SOME QUIET TIME IS JUST WHAT YOU NEED. TURN OFF THE PHONES DONT ANSWER THE DOOR AND JUST RELAX....

Thank you for your response. Don't answer the door. Well, since it doesn't lock, I can't ignore it if someone comes over. If I don't answer my phone, the police are called to check up on me and make sure I am ok. lol No kidding, my psych tried to call me, I was asleep so he sent out the sheriff and the police to make sure I hadn't hurt myself. They grabbed my toe to wake me up, I thought it was my cat playing with my toe. I couldn't figure out why they were in my bedroom. Talk about a nightmare. lol Always, Kathy

Goodness Kathy!!! I cannot imagine what that would have been like waking up with officers in my bedroom!!! I think I would have probably have had a stroke!!! I hope you are feeling some better and might I suggest a good book? Maybe if you like to do needle point or read your Bible?? I don't know... just something that is relaxing..... I hope you are having a good day!!!! (((HUGS)))

Hey woman, I know its been a while but hang in there. Good things take time and I know you've been trying to get this ball rolling for quite some time. It will happen and it will happen at a time that is best for you. *huggles* Dixie