I will NOT graze today!

OK!  Now that some of us are getting honest that we are having a few little problems in this second or third year, let's go to work! I commit to only eat breakfast, lunch, dinner, and protein coffee today with one Starbucks skinny cinnamon dolce latte.  No snacking, no mindless grazing, no sugar free sweets.  Who's with me?  I also commit that before I go to bed tonight NO MATTER how good or BAD I had been I will honestly post here for everyone to see.  Wendy-use your constructive criticism!  I am being brave!  Who is brave enough to join me in this?

I will join you in the no-grazing commitment!   Grazing is one of the hardest habits to break, I find myself just going to the kitchen, I know I'm not hungry, but I am there anyway....  

I have had my breakfast, CarbMaster Yougurt, I plan to have tuna for lunch and I brought an instant breakfast with yougurt to have before I go to the gym this evening.

I am with you, Marilyn!  Great idea to post and stay accountable!

I'm with you today Marilyn.  I love that picture of the cow...  "Grazing is for cows, not people!"  Lol

 Marilyn, I wanted to share something with you.  In our conversation the other day, you asked why can't people be honest about their struggles?  Well I do believe last night I found out why.  I posted on my blog about the Girl Scout thin mints that I ate the other day (6 of them to be EXACT) in a moment of weakness.  Well, my mother *****ads every word I write, says to me, "I read your blog."  I asked which one and sadly she said with disappointment, "About the girl scout cookies."  I said so?  She said "you need to be careful. You don't want to gain all that weight back."

I realized the fear in hear voice was out of concern.  I said, "Mother these things happen.  I am not perfect.  It doesn't happen all the time, just occasionally" but in her book, I should be perfect and never put one single bad food in my mouth.  GUESS WHAT?  I AM HUMAN.  I do eat stuff at times I am not supposed to.  I mean, come on. Do we really think that as a postop that we will N-E-V-E-R eat another cookie, piece of cake, piece of bread, pasta, you name it???  NO.  And if you are early out in your surgery and have not tested these, I say HALLELUJAH that is great.  But in one year, two years, five years, come back and say to me "I have NEVER tried anything that was not on my approved list."  Let's be honest here. 

I also want to throw out a challenge.  I am going to put up another post with a question of what was the stupidest thing you have put into your mouth since surgery.  And I wonder if anyone will be brave enough to step up and post on it. 

Marilyn, how ya doin?  Just wanted to check in with you to see how things are today.... 

I'm doing pretty well.  Just got done eating a chicken breast patty from Trader Joe's.  I am stuffed to the brim and couldn't eat it all.  I think I had my protein coffee too late.

Food wise, so far so good today.  I had protein coffee this morning and no breakfast.  I had deli meat and low fat cheese melted together for lunch kind of like a sub without the bread or dressings and a few grapes.  But emotionally, it has sucked.  I had to put my 16 year old kitty, Kodi to sleep this morning.  It broke my heart and I have to have another shoulder surgery on Monday.

I am sorry to hear about your kitty.  I love my furbabies, and it would devastate me to lose one of them...  I am glad that you did not turn to food, Marilyn.  So often, we have a tendency to do that.  Sounds like you are doing wonderful today...

Marilyn, I am so sorry you had to make the decision to have Kodi put to sleep today.  That is one of the hardest decisions we seem to have to make as a pet owner.  I have had to make it 3 times over the last 15 years and it never gets easier.  I have a tendency to love my furbabies with a big chunk of my heart and when I have to let one go, they take that part of my heart with them.  They give so much of themselves to us and ask for so little in return.  I'll certainly have you in my prayers as I know the grief you are feeling.  I will also keep you in my prayers as you undergo your surgery on Monday.  What are you having done?  I hope it's not as invasive as the last one was.

Hang in there - I know you have been through a lot recently.  Sometimes, it seems as if there is not a light at the end of the tunnel, but just remember, God is in control and He is never going to give you more than you can handle.  Just keep turning to Him and He will always be there for you.  You know if you need to talk, you can PM and I'll be glad to talk with you or send you my phone number so we can talk.

PS - Congrats on food control today - I know it's not easy, but keep up the good work - just one piece of advice - more protein. :)

When I am on my game, when of my "rules" is that I don't eat after 8 pm so I am done for the day.  I did not graze today.  Actually, I barely ate today.  It is weird how you grieve for a kitty but she was my baby and I miss her.  I kept praying she would die naturally, but she went blind and was miserable, but I still feel like a murderer even though I know better. I am going to keep working at not grazing tomorrow and I want all of you to work with me.  I didn't exercise at all today, but maybe tomorrow I will feel more like it.  Wendy, thanx for the thoughts.  My shoulder is frozen from the previous rotator cuff repair.  The surgeon is going to go in and remove scar tissue.  It should be an easy surgery and help me get back to work within a couple on months.

Hey Marilyn!

So sorry to hear about Kodi...I know how much you love her.

I hope the additional surgery will fix your shoulder right up!  Granny went to the orthopedic doc yesterday, they sent her for an MRI.  We get the results on Tuesday.  He said that on the regular x-ray there was still a "gap" in the shoulder so that is good news.  After he sees the MRI he will give the recommendations...maybe injections and therapy, possibly surgery...really???  Anyway, I'll let you know what they say.

We really want to come visit you all, but are going to wait until Shelby is born so that we don't have to rush off and drive further if Lacey goes into labor.

Love you girl!  Glad to see you doing so well with your eating!  I'm still having a hard time.  I really eat from stress I have learned and it is really a struggle to not do it...

C