update
I know that I should be jumping thur the roof but I can't I don't know what is wrong with me all the excitement and joy I had in the begining is gone. Yes I'm going to do what is right and lose the weight. I started the liquid diet on the 18th so far I guess I'm doing everything right. No this isnt easy at all and I know that I must have a positive attiutide in order for this to work and I'm really trying to get my mental old self back before surgey.
So Thank you to everyone who had a uplifiting message I will do my best and work hard on losing the weight and I will try one of the support meetings (talking in a group is not my thing but I will try).
Sorry if I pissed anybody off didn't mean to.......
Kenji
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Hi Kenji,
It is really good to see you posting. I don‘t think I remember the reason your surgeon cancelled your surgery date. Did you share that with the group or was that information too personal?….
Kenji, I don‘t think you pissed anyone off. Of course I can only speak for myself. I pretty much know when I **** someone off here cause they either let me know about it in a PM (dang some folks can be pretty mean, not near as nice as they portray them selves as a poster LOL…)Or I get an email telling me how the cow ate the cabbage or sometimes it comes in code under a New Topic (that one is always fun to decipher…LOL) As for me I was quite moved by your experience and only wanted to try and encourage you to keep fighting.
I am just happy to see you posting. I would love for you to share more in detail about your initial cancellation. That way I think the board can help encourage you more to get your joy back.
Well come to find out my nicotine test was positive now I had taken the test weeks before surgey and it came back neagitive. So of course they canceled I know that I flipped out but I had quit smoking 6 months before taking the test so I took another one and it came back negative so I was reschedule for this Monday the 26th. I can't and wont lie I was really hurt and upset that my test were showing nicotine and I'm not smoking so I just beat myself up.
Now that I cleared everything and now just days away I can say that everything that I have done it was worth it. So THANK YOU ALL for taking time and helping me to see that I just need to calm down and BREATHE so I will keep you updated and try to attend a group meeting while I'm home healing.
Have a safe and wonderful weekend
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