I am so ashamed

I am over a year out and I have thought of myself as successful RNY patient and a true rule follower, well tonight I over ate and had to vomit to relive the discomfort I am such a poor example. I feel like just hiding under something

I have not done this since my surgery and do not even know why I did it tonight

I was jus****ching TV and next thing ya know my plate was empty and my poor pouch was aching.

Well thank you all for letting me get this off my chest.

Hey, don't beat yourself up about it!  I would be willing to say it happens more than we will admit.

I've talked to several people who have admitted that they have cheated the system, or overate.  I've done it myself.  The big thing is that today is a new day, and we know what to do to correct it!

You are a success!  Just look at where you came from and who you are now!  Thats successful in my book.

Merry Christmas!
Santa Scott

Hey
So you had a weak moment.......you can look at how far you've come and see that you haven't had that happen very frequently.....so just put it in the past and proceed on........you have done wonderfully KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!!!!!!

Let's be honest.  We as morbidly obese individuals had problems/issues with food.  I mean, we sure didn't get overweight by drinking ice water all the time!  Just as it did not take overnight to gain the weight, lose the weight, so it will not take overnight to suddenly NOT have issues with food anymore.  It is a process. 

I will be the first to admit, I WISH I could vomit.  There are times when even ONE or TWO more bites of something make my stomach hurt really bad, crampy, and I pay for it a long time, maybe 30 minutes, maybe an hour.  Honestly, I have never been able to make myself throw up... pre or post surgery.  Though, I did throw up for 2 1/2 mos right after surgery only because I had a stricture.

Do I sometimes eat too much? Yes.  Do I sometimes eat FORBIDDEN foods? YES.  Do I consume sugar? YES.  That might burst some bubbles, but guess what?  That is life.  There is no need covering it up or lying about it.  Do I eat them all the time? No.  Do I eat the entire package? No.  They are more infrequent and in smaller quantities than they once were, but I am able to enjoy them guilt free. 

And guess what?  If anyone says they have not done the same, or will never do the same, then that is their conscience with God but I would be willing to bet if you take a poll, others would have to 'fess up.

Hon I say don't worry about it.  You messed up, learned a lesson and TODAY IS A BRAND NEW DAY! 

One incident a year out does not make you a failure or a poor example.  It makes you human!

Personally, I think losing 137 pounds makes you an excellent role model

Hope you feel better this morning and don't beat yourself up any more about it!  

Denise

Hon, Bless your heart it's alright, we have all step out on the ledge. And a couple of times yea, I must say I've jumped. even one bite to many as you know will do it. But guess what, I nor anyone else that I know dislikes that feel'n, and if you were paying attention you wouldn't of done it. But just always remember you are not alone. I wish we had a pressue valve, sort of like a pressure cooker has, I guess we do know, huh, maybe not the best example. Sorry. I was try'n to make you feel better. Big ole Hugz Barb

You are not a failure.  My gosh, losing the weight that you have is not a failure.  I have cheated.  I'm a failure at not being able to work out more.  So you cheated, that doesn't make you a failure.  Now you know what it does to you and will make you smarter the next time.  You and everyone on here who's had the surgery are all role models to those who haven't.  It's a new day and a new year coming up.  Just put it in the past.  I know I over ate yesterday evenng.  But I had been on clear liquids for a week and was starving.  I paid for it, I'm human and so are you.

Best wishes to you, Kathy

Thank you for sharing this with the rest of the folks here! I needed to hear that cause I've done the same thing and thought I was a bad patient! Melinda is right! We are still learning and trying to get it right but we slip up and that's OK. We get back up and start all over again!

Thanks again!
Janie

Same here.  I certainly had times during Christmas where I knew I ate more than I should and things on any other day I'd avoid.  Strangely enough, at 19 months out and 160 pounds off -- I've been maintaining although I'd like to get rid of that last 20 pounds...kind of expected to gain -- scale still says I'm maintaining.   Ok, further out we have a little leeway especially those of us that sugar and fat DOESN'T seem to make dump.  And the fact we reported back to those that will keep us accountable is a good thing. 

Key thought -- ok we indulged a little for an event but  this isn't a lifestyle anymore.

Even more determined now to work on that next 20 pounds.  Time to get serious...drink my water, limit my carbs and back to the gym.

Btw, you all look fabulous! 

I'm not gonna tell you it's alright, because it's not and you know it.  You have been through too much and come too far to screw up now. Sounds like you were distracted with the TV and not paying attention while eating. You screwed up and you paid the price. Now, learn from it - and don't do it again.  (Be glad you puked - shows your pouch worked like it should! )  As for being a success, you are. You're also human and humans make mistakes (the smart ones learn from their mistakes).  Now, get yourself back on track and follow the rules, young lady!